Twenty Three

I felt for sure last night

That once we said goodbye

No one else will know these lonely dreams

No one else will know that part of me

I'm still driving away

And I'm sorry every day

I won't always love these selfish things

I won't always live...

Not stopping...

It was my turn to decide

I knew this was our time

No one else will have me like you do

No one else will have me, only you

You'll sit alone forever

If you wait for the right time

What are you hoping for?

I'm here I'm now I'm ready

Holding on tight

Don't give away the end

The one thing that stays mine

Amazing still it seems

I'll be 23

I won't always love what I'll never have

I won't always live in my regrets

You'll sit alone forever

If you wait for the right time

What are you hoping for?

I'm here I'm now I'm ready

Holding on tight

Don't give away the end

The one thing that stays mine

You'll sit alone forever

If you wait for the right time

What are you hoping for?

I'm here I'm now I'm ready

Holding on tight

Don't give away the end

The one thing that stays mine...

So I know I you guys must be sick of me going on and on about Say Anything,

and I can not promise that this will be the last Say Anything post

but I will try and tone it down.

^_^

So I felt compelled to post this video that I found of Max Bemis from Say Anything preforming

an acoustic version of "Crushed" from their new album.

Enjoy!

A series of Statements.. some of a Question-like nature:

So I haven't gone skating in a few weeks and that kinda bums me out.

Why do the snow plow people feel the necessity to ruin my life?

Christmas is kind of overwhelming me... I am so behind...

Do you think Santa has to shovel snow?

Breakfast was really good this morning

This snow storm killed my plans last night...so Bummy.

I want to go to target today. I have some things I need to return.

If I want to go to Target I have to shovel out my car

I don't really want to shovel out my car...

I wish my car had a feature that melted snow off of it. That would be cool

Ughh...

Side note* I really like snow I just wish my car is a truck in this kind of weather..

Update: I posted pictures from the November Say Anything Concert on my Flickr. Check it out

www.Flickr.com/fairyflames4

What if I'm not what you think....I am...?

I went to my cousin Andrews Show tonight, the gig was at The Trash Bar the band is called "Born without a spine".

It was good but if you ask my cousin he would tell you that and I quote

"The worst the bands ever played".

I beg to differ.

Well anyway... lots of things to tell you ...

I don't think I have discussed my deep love for Ingrid Michaelson.

I have been listening to her non-stop.

My dad has threatened my life about 3 times already...

But I will not be silenced!

The song I have been listening to most is "Giving up". It's so great.

It's basically telling a story of a girl that's is a pessimistic and is overflowing with

What ifs and doubts about everything that she does and the people that surround her.

But for the one she loves she is going to give up all the what ifs.

Here are the lyrics:

What if we stop having a ball?

What if the paint chips from the wall?

What if there's always cups in the sink?

What if I'm not what you think I am?

What if I fall further than you?

What if you dream of somebody new?

What if I never let you win, chase you with a rolling pin?

Well what if I do?

I am giving up on making passes

and I am giving up on half empty glasses

and I am giving up on greener grasses

I am giving up

What if our baby comes home after nine?

What it your eyes close before mine?

What if you lose yourself sometimes?

Then I'll be the one to find you Safe in my heart

I am giving up on making passes and

I am giving up on half empty glasses and

I am giving up on greener grasses

I am giving up.

Amazing right,

It just makes me realize I have to stop living my life through what ifs and just do it.

What ifs just hold you back from things that you know you want to do,

This song made me realize that society makes you ask yourself questions that don't necessarily have to be asked.

I'm going to stop what ifing my self!

*Side note* While writing this post I got a bloody nose...

Yay for updates!

Finally got around to updating my blog,
When things are the same for too long I get tired of looking at it.
So right this very second I am listening to music and feeling inspired.

So inspired that I had a photoshoot today!
So like a week ago I made a hat with Dinosaur spikes and I got his Idea for a picture.

So out of all the ones that I took I picked my favorite and here it is....
Lol just looking at it makes me want to say RAWR!
and if Tyra Banks was around she would say "Fierce!"

(Why she would even be around is beyond me)

Haha, So it is the time of year that I break out all my Rock/Pop Christmas songs.

Currently listening to My Chemical Romance version of "All I want for Xmas"

Speaking of what I want for christmas... that was really hard this year,

I still don't know what I want.

I'm sure my fam will figure it out.....

That is I hope so....lol.

Well I think this post has had absoulutly no point other then to show off my Dinosaur hat. Hmmmmm. I don't know how I feel about that.

*Side note* Banana, U are in no way like "she who will not be mentioned" lol. Ur always working, I never know when ur free, it was an impromtu shopping trip, but do not fret banana, we shall make a trip soon... sooner then u think.....

The snow reached inside of my heart and froze you out...

Sings* It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas...Dum de dum de dum...*

Snow has fallen and so the drudgery begins, shoveling my car out of a parking space is right around the corner I can feel it. Woe is me..

I went to the City with my friend Mar mar today, It was AweSome!

We had lunch at chipotle, shopping in Union square, I purchased my yearly trinity knot and went to Urban O's. That place was made to make me want everything I see... It's heart breaking walking out with nothing to show for it.

Oh, I also went to blick and got a Kickin new bag!

Ok I know what some of you are thinking...

"Really Delilah, Another bag..?"

What can I say I just loooove interesting bags, Some of them are like conversation pieces you walk around with, I have to say there are a few bags in my collection where people have been all for example:

*Enter scenario*

Stranger: "OMG, I love your bag, Where did you get it?"

Me: (stares down to see what bag they are talking about) "Oh, Thanks" (Smile)

Stranger: Where did you get it?!?!?

Me: Honestly, I don't remember. In the city some where I think.

Stranger: (now touching my bag) I have never seen anything like it.

Me: (Trying to find a way out of this awkward situation without being rude) Thanks, Uhh yeah. Me neither until I purchased it.(Smile)

Stranger: It's so cute. (Finally lets go of my bag)

Me: (As I begin to walk away)Thanks Again. (without waiting for a reply walks away quickly)

*End Scenario*

So yeah, It a diffrent reaction depending on the bag,

This scenario is more for my toki doki Le sports sac.

How did this post become about purses...?

Well anyway when I get a chance I will post a picture of my new one.

It's sooo prettiful.

Ta ta...

Side note* I will do my best to post some pics...^_^!

100 a.k.a Trivia shows own.

I'm sitting at home watching reruns of Jeopardy.

This show will forever remind me of my Grandmother, She would always put it on and say to my cousin and I "I'll give you a $1 for every answer that you get right."

Memories.

This is Blog post number 100.

I have to say I am proud considering that I never usually keep these things up but I find it a great outlet to express myself through the written word.

sometimes I find myself walking around and thinking "I should blog this" but then I keep doing whatever I was doing and then I forget what it was I wanted to blog.

It's a process...

Anyway!

My favorite time of the year is coming up!

Christmas!

Now its not because of presents, it because all my family gathers at my aunts house and for some reason I feel like I am closer to all of them on that day, and now we have the most recent addition to the family, Isabella.

I plan on making her another blanket, I know how many blankets does a child need.

But this is a cool project that I am really excited about it,

Its going to look like a Polaroid.

Its going to be sooo Rad!

Well thats all for now....bye

*Side Note* I have been watching Ninja movies lately and I think I want to be a Ninja now.

*Side Side Note* Don't Judge

Maybe, the world'll look like this forever

So November 3rd I had the pleasure of seeing Say Anything in concert..Again.

lol and as always they were Amazing!!

I got to Irving Plaza at like 1:30ish and I was the second person on the line.
Yay!
So I totally knew I was going to get a sweet spot in the front.. which I did!
So their were 2 opening bands and 2 main bands, the opening bands were pretty good my favorite was The Miniature Tigers. They were so good, surprising for an opening band. I love going to shows there is something to be said about the energy that is at a rock so, you feel so alive, like anything is possible!

But anyway I went to see The Flying Karamazov Brothers on the 7th and that show was sooo funny, I went with my lovely aunt and we both had a really good time.
It was a surprise when I saw my juggling teacher preforming, because I thought that he was no longer preforming with the show but it turns out I was wrong. ^_^

Speaking of juggling where is my poi, I can't find them anywhere.
I have to practice...

Today I painted my Very ugly Ice Skates and now they are even uglier, haha Just kidding
They are Beautiful now.

A work of moving art if you will.

I can't wait to show them off at the rink tomorrow morning.

For now I will have to just show them off here and all 3 of my readers can show the world

lol, I make myself giggle...

Here are the skates:

This is a picture of the inside of the skate,

aka the part of the skate that is next to the other skate.

So no one will really see this, its more for me. ^_^

This is the side of the skate that is visible to anyone who cares to look.

*Side note* I really don't have a side note today.

Jack of all Trades, Master at none

Today, lots of thoughts have been running through my head, too many…

Sometimes I think it’s better to be simple-minded at least that way you won’t know that you’re throwing your life away.

I guess that is what I have been feeling lately, I know no one can make me happy but me, it’s not as easy as it seems.

Time is holding me captive like it does everyone else.

Is my only choice to make the best of it or do I have the option to fight it kicking and screaming? It passes so quickly, I take a breath and a week has passed, I move my hand to my face and there goes a year.

Hmmm.

I picked up my computer and had all intentions of writing about music and the amazing effect it has upon ones soul, but it seems my mind had other things planned.

Let me try and steer you away from my depression introspective.

I find myself listening to Death Cab for Cutie more, my favorite song right now has to be "Passenger seat".

It’s slow and melodic but it captures my heart in a way that cannot be explained. Although I find the one song that encompasses how I feel is "the sound of Settling". It’s short but upbeat, you find yourself singing along with it.

Despite the upbeat tempo I feel like the song is attempting to give the listener a wakeup call by telling them that at one point the singer may have felt himself settling when he knew he could do so much more.

The line I love most is "My brains repeating, if you’ve got an impulse let it out."

It’s strange how writing this out makes the weight on my chest lighter. I think that is all I have to say for now. Sorry this was such a depressing post I’ll try to make the next post upbeat. ^_^

Here are some pictures that are lifting my spirits at the moment

the following found at http://ache.tumblr.com/

Mama Mia.. Here we go again!

So I took a little trip to Pawling NY the other day for work.

It was an hour and a half drive there and I have to say that it was so beautiful over there.

The leaves were changing and it just happened to be a wonderful day!

I took some pics with my cell phone (I will share soon).

I wanted to head to the city last Monday to take a juggling class but I didn't get a chance because of work.

sadness.

Oh well but as of late I have started to make weekly trips to the Ice Skating Rink.

I really enjoy it, I would like to go with friend but some of them have phobias and are away...

These friends shall not be named....they know who they are.

Lol I love you guys anyway!

I find that I am becoming more and more confidant on the Ice, Mind you, I am in no way going to start flipping and swirling on the ice but I feel like I have come a really long way.

~Flashback~

For my 14Th Birthday I had an Ice Skating Party

(What else is there to do when your birthday is in the middle of winter)

It was time to go home and we were getting ready to go home,

When I got off the ice I slipped and fell and my skate turned my ankle in a very unnatural position following that there was a loud crack.

My Father insisting that I was fine said to walk on it.

Ha ha no way, Turns out that it was broken.

After that I swore off skating for a really long time.

That was until I went to Paris, it was winter and near Notre Dame they set up a outdoor rink.

After much convincing with things like "How many people can say they have been Skating in Paris" and "This is a once in a lifetime chance" I agreed and it was great.

~End Flashback~

Ah Memories, lol their not always pleasant but those are the things that make you, you...

OK I think I'm done with the whole memory lane thing or should I say memory lame... Badumpum.. ha ha bad joke..

I really hope you have stopped reading by now... Well anyway Later!

*Side note* I wish we had more Roller rinks in NY...Bummer

*Side notes Side note* My favorite Abba song has to be Super Trooper.

Le coeur a ses raisons que la raison ne connaît point

Watching TCM right now they are playing Harold Lloyd's world of comedy, he has to be my favorite silent movie stars.

Anyway I had to comment on what happened to autumn, It is my favorite season out of the whole year and it totally just passed as far as I am concerned its Winter. I have to wear scarves and gloves when I go outside... It's so cold...

But the cold also means that all my favorite Holidays are coming around! yay.

Since there seems to be a reoccurring theme here is a list of my......

10 Favorite things about Fall

1. Hot Coco

2. Color of the leaves changing

3. Warm Mugs in cold hands

4. Chill in the air

5. Apple Cinnamon Sugar Doughnuts

6. The crunch of leaves beneath Converses

7. Halloween

8. A Warm bed next to a Cold floor

9. Scarves, Ear Muffs and Gloves

10. Nutella Crepes

*Side Note* the Title of this post is french for

"The heart has its reasons which reason knows nothing of"

Dig North Young Jim

Those were the words I saw spray painted on a metal beam in the tunnel of Grand Central Station.
I went to juggling class finally this Monday (I'm trying to learn Poi spinning)
It was a great class my arms were sore afterward, but it was a good pain. My parents were away this week so it has been my sister, the dog and I.
I think a pretty good week all in all. I went to Max Brenner's : Chocolate by the bald man, this week with Jess.
We had The Brenner Burger and it came with these fries that were seasoned with a coco chili powder.
We shared because we wanted to make sure we had room for dessert
and for dessert we had the munchie waffles.
Omg sooo Good!
After all of that surprised that I was still able to move we took a walk to the strand book store and I got a French dictionary and then we walked to Barnes and Nobles so Jess could get a book he wanted.
I had a lot of fun, but it was bitter sweet, Jess is going to be away for 6 months. So although bummed I am really happy for him!
Hes is going to have a great time and will be missed Insanely!
Have a Great Trip Jess!!!

*Side Note* I recently saw Whip It! and it was AWESome!!

Apple Picking!!!

Yes Folks, Its that time of year!!!

Today was Fantastic, my family and I went Apple Picking at Maskers Orchard here in NY.

We go every year and this year we had the newest addition to the fam with us.

After we have pick a sufficient amount of apples

(and eaten enough to make us never want to see another one)

We have a picnic.

Then we go to the orchards gift shop and get all sorts of jams and mixes, I found the cutest cookie cutters.

Then we ate Apple doughnuts and drank cider.

(in my opinion they have the best cider ever at maskers)

We have done this every year since I was a kid.

So here are some pics from our day...

Up up and Away?

So there has been a lot of talk in the household of moving to Virginia.
This is something I am opposed to, Honestly, there is nothing for me there..

I mean my EMT licence is for NY and you can't get that transferred.
It's not like I'm trying to be difficult It's just that its so far from everything I love.
Virginia is not a city like NY, I wouldn't mind moving to Chicago, Florida or even Cali.

But how do you move a girl that grew up in Brooklyn, NY to Virginia.....?

They are not even comparable!

Anyway... Lately I have been getting back into drawing, I had kind of stopped because I have been super into crocheting. Here are some pictures of Crochet project i have been working on!!

The Raspberry Beret!

Granny Squares..

The Brighton Cowel

I haven't been taking a lot of pictures or blogging lately, I feel like i just don't have time and that makes me sad.

Stoked!!

I have a few things I want to touch base on!
First I am really excited for Say Anythings new album coming out soon and I recently purchased Tickets to see them in November.

Speaking of November, that seems to be a pretty busy month I also have Tickets to see The Flying Karamazov Brothers in Tarrytown. Yay!

I love going to Concerts and shows of my fancy, I always have.

Let me see If I can describe the feeling.

It's like when you were young and there was a night that was so fantastic when you woke up the next morning it didn't feel real, like it was a crazy vivid dream.

It's Magical thinking about it again and thinking to yourself... That really happened to me.

Wow...... I totally went into to much detail.

I'm going to be heading into V.A. in a few hours were leaving at 6 in the am, I almost don't think its worth going too sleep considering the fact that it is almost 3.

I kinda wish that the gym opened at 5am today but alas it opens at 7 or 8, I really don't know what the weekend hours are,

I usually go at obscene hours when I am having a hard time sleeping.

But whatever I think I have said what I wanted to, Night Everyone (all two of you)

Side Note* I want to see the new Hayao Miyazaki film Ponyo and learn Poi spinning!!!

Isabella Sophia (Remixed!!)

Disheartened and Reheartened..

That my car is still in the shop... It is completely horrible not to have a car in westchester.

its like you can see and then you are suddenly blind after being spoiled with sight.

and I realize I am being slightly whiny but I really miss my car.

So in honor of Ruby (My car) This post with be red. YAY!

Update: while writing this I received a phone call stating that my car is ready to be picked up!

I am so Happy. I've got my vision back!

I met my new Baby cousin Isabella Sophia Franco.

She was Born August 10th @ 7lbs and 9 ounces.

She is a Total Cutie Pie!

I am so proud of My Aunt Ale, she did an amazing job.

It wasn't an easy labor but shes a trooper.

Also I'm going to give you guys a bit of a photo Update!

I haven't done that it a while so TA DA!

My sister and I in the City

The Crochet Mermaid Doll I made for Isabella

And that is all for right now!

Talk to you soon!

Feeling Some What Inspired....

I'm watching one of my favorite movies right now which is Stardust,

part of me wishes that life was just as magical as in movies like this.

Tonight, My Aunt was induced into labor

I expect my new baby cousin will be here very soon.

I must admit i am very excited, I can't wait to see her grow up

I have been thinking about her and all the things I want to teach her.

Also I will be taking French classes soon I am totally amped about them, I have been wanting to learn French forever!!

Part of me is wondering that because I have so many interest if I have become a Jack of all trades but a Master at none. That makes me kind of sad.

I am doing a little bit of thinking.

(I know take a step back, I don't want to hurt anyone)

But I want to refocus my energy into taking the things that I am mediocre at and make improve those skills. So thats where my head is at.

Oh and I'm working on a beret right now. YAY!

Side note* I am really fed up of certian people.

Japanese food and Sleep Deprivation

A lethal combo, but the outcome was good.

I came back a few hours ago from a early trip from Mitsuwa in Jersey after not necessarily a long night but a taxing one.

A lot of things have been going on but for some reason I cant bring myself to write about it. Nothing bad or anything,

Just stuff that wouldn't really interest anyone but me.

Well I guess that's all really.

Talk to you all soon.

Yeah I totally went missing....

My Bad...

Lets update shall we....

For the most part my life has been pretty dull,

Life is mundane and it is time for me to stop being a slacker and kick my but into gear.

I have to admit thought i have quite enjoyed being a slacker.

This past weekend I went to the traditional family reunion.

That was a good time!(Really, I'm not being sarcastic, ha ha i know shock)

So I am pretty sure i mentioned my future endeavors to move to Puerto Rico, well I think it's time to get everything in order to do that. I'm thinking I will move there for 6 months are so.

But who knows what the future will hold.

So side note Story....

I went to the gas station at about 12am the other night. now I know that my card never ever works at the gas pump. So knowing this I walked up to the guy behind the glass and said

"15 on pump 6 please" and then I took out my card to hand it to him.

to which he replied "you can do it at the pump"

"It never works when I do it at the pump" I said.

then he said something that threw me off for a sec.

"Why"

Like I worked at the card company and know why it doesn't work.

So I told him" I don't know, It just never works. "

Then he told me to got try it.

So I do it and of course it doesn't work, Then he comes over and make me do it in front of him and low and behold it still doesn't work!

At this point I am totally pissed, like how demeaning!

He still had to go back to his little booth and swipe my card like he wasted my time just because he wanted to be a stubborn prick. Like that is so frustrating!!!

Pure heart, strange Eyes...

Let me tell you a story...

A fictional story that is...

There was once a girl who's heart was pure

but when you looked at her at first she was startling. Beautiful but also frightening

One eyes was green and the other blue, her skin was so pale she looked like a ghost.

Her hair was black with a blue hue she tried to hide the scars behind it.

She was burned at a child and was ashamed of the scars left behind on her pale cheek.

People where frightened by the scars and over time her pure heart began

to grow dark a dark shadow.

She didn't leave her house anymore and as time passed she became merely a scary story.

The Pale girl with the hideous scars ands strange eyes, What people didn't know is that she was in fact very much alive and not a legend.

That girl became a woman and she went out at night rather then the day, for fear of being shunned.

This was the reason no one ever saw her, she had been doing this for years.

One night she went out on her usual walk and she came across a man lying in the woods near where she lived. Upon closer inspection she realized that his leg was broken and he seemed to have passed out.

She gathered some long branches, took off her scarf and began to splint his leg.

While she was repositioning him he woke up and put his hand on hers.

She looked at him and found herself looking straight into his eyes but he fell back into the forest floor before he could say anything.

She finished splinting his leg and watched over him through the night, bringing him water as he slept.

When the man woke he found a bread and cheese sandwich with a bottle of water, next to him.

He looked around for the girl with the brilliant eyes but found no one.

To Be Continued.....

I made Bread!!! AHHHHHHH!

I am like sooo Amped!!!

I totally made my first loaf of bread.

I am so proud!

(Drum roll) and here it is!!

A busy girl takes a breath....

I have a feeling of peace surrounding me right now.

The baby show was today and I got my blanket finished in time.

I was really pleased with the end result, unfortunately I didn't get a picture of the finished blanket but I will eventually.

I am really excited for the baby.

Finally I will be apart of a new baby's life. I am happy.

I have a renewed sense of purpose and I think things will start working themselves out.

I'm starting to feel a thing that warms my heart and shoves out all the worries

I think its hope...

Delilah....

There are 10,727 people in the U.S. with the first name Delilah.
Statistically the 1798th most popular first name.
More than 99.9 percent of people with the first name Delilah are female.

There are 42,908 people in the U.S. with the last name Franco.
Statistically the 831st most popular last name.

There are 2 people in the U.S. named Delilah Franco.

And I am one of them!

I just googled my name and I found this..

I thought it was interesting so I decided to share.

It's strange to see what pops up when you google yourself.

I see things that I did when I was like 16 years old and I think to myself wow...

I have changed... but yeah I just wanted to share that little tid bit.

It's almost 2 am and I should be sleeping, so I think I am going to do just that!

Night Y'all!

So like I totally can't spell... and now you know I'm Crazy

It's true, I always end up looking back at my blog post and think...

Do I really spell like that or is my blog just messing with my head...

Everyone in my house is asleep and here I am awake,

thinking about things that would be fun to do.

It's raining outside and I like the sound.

The sound of rain is one of the most comforting sounds to me.

It almost wraps itself around me and lets me know I am safe.

You know in yoga how they almost always tell you to go to that special place in you mind... or is that meditation.. Well what ever that's not the point.

The point is that I imagine that the place in my mind is a Plush green rain forest while it is raining... Lovely...

Looking back on what I just wrote I realized that I talk like this... Ha ha

My mind takes me place that even I wonder how I got there...

I remember one time in particular, my family and I went to Woodbury Commons, we were on our way back home and I was looking out the window (one of my favorite things to do) and I felt the uncontrollable urge to say something "I wish mermaids were real".

Everyone was silent for a second and then I got the normal what is wrong with you glare...

Even I was questioning myself, where did that come from. So I went back into my thoughts and found out how I got to that place.... It went a little something like this.....

I was looking out the car window at the ton of trees we were passing, as I was gazing I wondered what I would do If I saw a Unicorn run past. Then I started thinking about other mythical creatures and realized despite my ever hoping heart Mermaids weren't real and I wished they were... The End

I think all of the people who read this will think I'm crazy enough... I've done my part for the world.

It's not what this looks like....

So lately I have been super busy trying to get my life into gear.
All work and no play make Delilah...
Totally bored with her reality...
This is my plan for tomorrow...

1. Take a look at my bike and see what kind of condition it is in.
(Example: Air in tires, Brakes work and so on and so forth)
2. Hula Hoop
3. Take an over Due book back to the Library...
4. Work on finishing Baby blanket..
5. Go to the Old Navy in Eastchester.
6. Try not to spend a lot of cash at the Old Navy in Eastchester.
7. Practice my Spanish.
8. Upload photo's on Flickr..
9. Go to camera shop in Tarrytown and get a few camera straps
10. Apply for Volunteer EMT Position..
and Number 11....( Drum Roll)
... Ehhhh Oh Wait, I dont have a numer 11...

Harde har har

So Yeah, as you can tell I am super Busy...
I don't think I'll be able to get through these things, and I know what your thinking!
"What do you mean you won't be able to get all of these things done! I have 4 kids I work overtime and I don't remember what it's like to go outside!"
Well I say this to you mother who is reading my blog, one What are you doing reading my blog you have 4 Kids! And Second, You have to factor in that I dont wake up until like 3 pm...jk!

Side Note* I am really diggin 3Oh!3 right now!

Goodbye: The word you're wielding like a knife...

I totally feel like I am in overdrive lately...

with work and all these events coming up it's like

"Ok, take a moment and breathe"

Mother's Day is around the corner and I still have yet to get my mother anything...

My Aunt's Baby Shower is in a few weeks

and the Baby blanket I have been working on is still a ways off from being done...

I have to start turning in applications for EMT work.

Nix will be home June 5Th and I have to get her from the Airport.

I have to get medical coverage which I have been putting off.

I need to get a check up like for reals.

So I really need to take a few moments and just kinda get myself together.

So yeah..

a Happy note!

I got a hair cut!

I like it but my mom hates it.

So shes kinda been riding me about it,

but like really what would you like me to do

It's not like I can make my hair grow super fast just to appease her.

I am totally going to own it. I dig it and that is really all that matters in this situation.

I kinda feel like riding a bike tomorrow, but I dont think my bike is in good condition right now.

So I might just go rollerblading tomorrow insead.

When I was younger I used to rollerblade all the time,

but then my parents moved me to Westchester..

Which is mostly Hills....

Which sucks for rollerblading....well that is unless you have a death wish.

But in my recent travels,

I found this concreate trail where people ride bikes and run on

so I thought I might go there and embarass myself.

Lol.

This is going to be an adventure.....

OMG! Oh wait, I thought that was a ghost....

Let's see...

I'm at point in my life that everyone gets to.

It's that slow realisation that it's crunch time, Time is running out to decide what want to do when I grow up because guess what.... I am grown up.

People my age are just starting to start the chosen careers, and here I am being a total slacker.

So I think I going to start getting serious and start getting into my EMT work.

It's scary and exciting at the same time.

I feel like I need to brush up on all my skills.

So I'm going to start studying and practicing my skills.

Ok so moving on from that.... I totally got a hula hoop!

I went to Dube a week ago and got a Mini Diabolo and a hula hoop. It breaks down into 4 Peices so its super portable and the weather is getting really nice....In fact if I really wanted to I can go to the park and hula hoop. ^_^

Speaking of Diabolos...

One of my friends, one that will not be named (but her nickname sounds like danana) still has one of my Diabolos!!!

I would like it back one day missy...... hmm... hmmm.....

Well Ok I think thats really all I have to say right now..... Later!

Side note* My Grandfather's death day was yesterday, I love you Grandpa!

Lovely Neighbors... ^_^

So yesterday I was walking to my car to go to work.

I hop into my car and when I tried to start the engine all I heard was a ticking noise.

I was like Shit!!!

My battery was dead and there was no one home to jump my car for me.

So I ran next door to my neighbors house and asked if they could give me a jump.

They were very nice and gave me a jump.

So to thank them I am going to make them cupcakes.

Not just regular cupcakes.......

Confetti Cupcakes!!!

So that's what I'm going to go work on right now! YAY!

Delilah in P.R?

I started thinking about moving to Puerto Rico about a year ago.

I kind of put it on the back burner though.

But lately I have been thinking about it a little more and more.

What if I just picked up and moved there? I think I would really like it. It would give me the chance to learn Spanish and get to know the family that I have there...

Now here's the problem...

I can't speak Spanish, I can understand it for the most part if it is spoken to me and I can speak a little but in m head I can not form a reply and then from the sheer exhaustion of trying to figure out how to say what I want or mean, I end up losing all focus and giving up.

It is so frustrating!

Then I started thinking what if I went to school there, so then I started researching the schools in P.R and surprise, surprise it is all taught in Spanish. That's like a guaranteed fail.

I'm still thinking about moving down there but for now have no cemented plans on it. It's just something I want to do.

Weird.....

That's how I am feeling right now.

For the most part I am a pretty happy person...but that's not how I feel right now.

I can't really describe it.

I have felt like this before and I don't like it.

It's almost as if I have this weight (literally) on my chest. I think my depression has manifested itself into existence. Not much to do about it but ride it out. i was hoping that by expressing myself a little it would go away.....

but alas it is still here....woe is me.

A short list of things I love/ T.G.I.F

In random order...

1. Reading

2. Tea with scones

3. Dancing movies

4. Plants

5. My Friends

6. Rain

7. Music

8. Inventions that make my life easier.

9. Hibachi

10. Traveling

11. Rainbows

I'm in a list making mood today.

Today it is raining so I put on my boots and jumped in some puddles, I also made some Crocheted curtian ties. I then got dressed and picked up my sister 10 minuted late.

Oh I almost forgot I bought some potting soil and a new plant that I am going to pot a little later.

It is really a random day for me......

and its not even over yet....

My Morning Beat Down....

Ever since we got our dog Luna,

I have been awoken to a dog clawing at my door knob and barking at my door,

which is then followed by her getting into the room and her jumping on my head until I am screaming at her and covering my face with my pillow.

*She just looks all innocent...this is not the case....

Let me tell you this, It is by no means a pleasant way to start the day.

So every morning around the same time.... I get abused...

Is it fair...No.

But whatever I deal....

In other News.... absolutely nothing is going on in my life.

Lets see what else I can blabber on about...

I hate paying for things with cash sometimes. For example, Today I had to go to the store to return something I purchased, and for the life of me I could not find the Receipt.

So I was all like "Whatever, I bought it using my credit card so it should just show up on the card" So I get to the store and I'm all like " Hello, I would like to return this item that I purchased from your store. I don't have the receipt with me but I do have the card I purchased it with"

So I give her the card and she all like " are you sure it was this card" and I said " Yeah, I'm pretty sure that was the one" at this point in time I am beginning to doubt myself.

(*Inner Dialogue* " Did I use that card, I'm almost positive I did, Why wouldn't I have... I use it for everything else...To get gas, eating out, buying groceries...Hmmmm...")

Then it clicks...Wait I paid for it in cash!?!

So I expressed this to the cashier and she said " Well, I'm going to have to give you store Credit" Ok is it just me or is this a scam....

Because I paid cash I get screwed over, If I would have used my card I would have been able to just get my money back but because I used cash I have to get store credit which I can't use anywhere else....Is it me or is that really messed up.

I was thinking about it and it kind of bothered me the more I thought about it.

I mean think of it this way...what if I never shopped at this store and the only thing I wanted was the product that I purchased. Now once I got the product it was unsatisfactory and I wanted to return it. There is nothing else in the store that I want. Now I am stuck with this store credit for a store that I have no Interest in...

This has gone too far.

*Side note* Is it just me or am I really fond of the"...'s" tonight

Snow White... has nothing on me...

Snow White,
originally uploaded by Fairyflames4.

Well in my boredom, I make up photo shoots in my head. So One day I was eating Chicken with some cut up apple slices
(you wouldnt think this taste good but it does.) and i was looking at one of the apples I bought and said to my self why don't I do a snow white themed photo shoot?..... So i got all snazzy and grabbed my apple and this is one of the pic's. It's totally my Fave! I feel like I really captured Snow white. I think I might do all the Farytales... but then again that could just be a passing thought....

I went to bed with a shirt and woke up without one.

SO I haven't been doing much lately, I have been a lazy bum and super boring....

Crocheting has taken a large chunk of my days and I have been gathering more and more patterns online.

I have also been taking Knitting classes, I think I'm getting better, I found this Pattern online for the mittens Bella wears in Twilight but I'm not good enough to make them yet....

.....and today I bought Socks!!

I am like totally in love with this website:

http://www.sockdreams.com/

They have every sock you can Imagine, and lately I have been into OTK's (over the knee) Socks.

So I bought 3 pairs today....Don't Judge...

1. Rainbow!!!!

2. These are Obasic's, the color is called Natural but their just Beige in my eyes but I like them!
3. These are the Long Cuffable Scrunchable Socks, I love the Color!

Sometimes you just can't help it.......

Side note* My sister was in the car with me and randomly asked me If I would ever set a hobo on fire.... To which I stared at her with a quizical glance....and then replied "...No... Would you?...." To which she said " Maybe ....it might be funny" What is wrong with her......!

As Promised.....I now present you with a Lulu's Cupcake

Cupcake Conundrum...

I have been ruined.

Once you have the perfect something its hard to turn back and settle for mediocre.

What has ruined me you ask.....Lulu's Cupcakes.

I absolutely love their Cupcakes..

If you ask me they are perfect in my eyes.

They are moist and the frosting is a smooth butter cream that is sin worthy.

I have probably mentioned them before briefly, today was one of those days I was really digging one. So I hopped into my car for the quick drive to scarsdale, Only to be met by a closed sign. Unbeknownst to me they are closed Monday's and Tuesday.

I have to say at that moment I was slightly crushed, But I quickly recovered and remembered a bakery my mother hand told me about in Westchester. So I hopped back into my car and drove to this other bakery.

Well I was very disappointed with my cupcake purchase.

The cupcake was hard, dry and lemony (It was supposed to be vanilla) and the frosting was a lump on top(tumor like in appearance) and it had some sort of chocolate ganache on it with a cherry stuck in it.

It kind of reminded me of the sword in the stone.

The cherry was kind of dry as well, it kind of looked like it had been stabbed at a couple of times to get it out of the jar.

The Cupcake in Question....

Needless to say I will be sticking with Lulu's they haven't steered me wrong yet.

Their Cakes, Cupcakes and other scrumptious treats leave their competitors in the dust.

They have something for everyone.

I will post a Lulu's Cupcake picture soon and if your interested in getting your own Lulu's Cupcake, Here's a link to their website everythinglulu.com

Talk to everyone soon!

Why Harold! That was your last date!

I was flicking through the channels on T.V and I happened to come across Harold and Maude, I forget what an awesome movie it is. It's full of my morbid sense of humor.

I have my friend Jessica to thank for introducing me to it.

Lately I have been considering joining some sort of sports team in the local area maybe Lacrosse or something but they seem to be few and far between, And knowing the way I am, Its a fleeting thought.

I feel like making a list.

Considering I'm listening to my IPod at the moment.

How about the songs I'm listening to most at the Moment.

(In no particular order)

1. I love College - Asher Roth
2. Miserable at best - Mayday Parade
3. Curse of curves - Cute is what we aim for
4. My life would suck without you - Kelly Clarkson
5. Broken Strings - James Morrison
6. Homecoming -Hey Monday
7. Here it goes - Jimmy Eat World
8. Desolation Row - My Chemical Romance
9. I will play my game beneath the spin light -Brand New
10. Alone in this bed (Capeside) -Framing Hanley

OK This is going to be a short one tonight, I'm off to sleep!

Night everyone!

*Side Note* I'm starting to think that flowers die lonely. Who takes the time to talk to them or give them motivation?

I went all M.I.A....all I wanna do is go bang bang bang and a boom and take ur money.... just kidding!

Wow I can't believe I haven't written in here in almost a month.

Let see what have you missed....

Trip to Ireland was fantastic!!! I even got a new Diabolo.... like I needed a new one.

Its an orange and green millennium.

I have to start taking juggling classes again, I need to master the Diabolo its like one of those life goals.

While in Ireland I went to the The Jameson Dublin International Film Festival.

That was lovely, I saw a movie with Chris O'Dowd in it called Frequently Asked Questions About Time Travel

He is like one of my favorite Irish actors, He plays Roy in an English television show called the I.T. Crowd.

Here's a little about Chris O'Dowd and his character Roy that I found online:

"The smiling face of the I.T. Department, Roy's spiky personality ensures he'll always be kept away from normal people as long as possible.
He's king of the basement, indulging his love of comic books, fast food, computer games and random arguments with his best friend, Moss.
Chris O'Dowd's biggest claim to fame is his collection of Yorkie wrappers - over 1000 at the last count. Outside of his passion for hearty chocolate bars, Chris has appeared in Mike Leigh's Vera Drake, Red Cap and the award-winning docu-drama, The Year London Blew Up.
Back home in Ireland, Chris also starred in two series of the RTE-produced drama The Clinic, as well as in the drama Showbands alongside Kerry Katona"

It's a really funny show but you would probably only get some of the jokes if your not on the nerdy side. A great show none the less.

I saw another movie at JDIFF, I was called Synecdoche, New York.

I can easily say this was the worst movie I have ever seen in my existence on this planet, and I have seen a lot of movies.

Their are people out there saying that this movie was genius, to you I say these people must be out of their minds!

I'm done talking about this movie and I am now moving on with my life.

Ok, so I get home after my week away, there was a lot of love flowing about my house.

What can I say I'm miss able. The week end rolls around and I wake up like it was any other Saturday morning.

I was on the couch watching T.V and our dog Luna starts barking like crazy, So I wander over to the window and I see a dog wandering onto our driveway.

Being the animal lover that I am, I went to the door to see if the dog had any tags or anything.

As I open the door and put it so it was slightly open but closed enough so that Luna wouldn't get out.

Luna jumps on the door and closes it behind me. I was locked outside of the house with a strange dog for like 20Min's till I gave up trying to get into the house, and went to our crazy neighbors next door and I asked to use their phone to call my mothers cell.

My mother told me that she was at the gym and couldn't come home to get me, so she sent my father.

End of story goes dog had no tag, I called the ASPCA and they came to pick her up.

so at least now she is being well taken care of now. YAY happy ending.

*Side note: I think I'm going to talk about Rob Dyrdek in my next blog...