Somethings missing in me, I felt it deep within me as lovers left me to bleed...alone....

The title of this post is from my most recent fave song,

the song is called "Missing" by Flyleaf.

The song is AmAzing!

I found this on Flyleaf's page, this is what they had to say about this song:

"Missing" is another song that shows how important love and life are. The hook is massive, but there's more to it. Lacey continues, "The bridge says "Down here love wasn't meant to be for me, all is vanity underneath the sun." The phrase makes you ask 'What would the world be like if we took love out of it?' Love is painful. It requires work. It's selfless. Even though it's difficult, if you take that out of the earth you're going to end up with nothing. C.S. Lewis said, 'The only place in all of the world where you can escape the dangers of love is hell.'"

So inspiring, they are actually a Christian rock band and a lot of their songs are about God.

People that know me know that I am not a very religious person, that's not to say I don't have my beliefs, but for some reason Flyleaf's music just speaks to me, even the religious ones.

"All around me" was one of my fave songs for a while, every time I listened to it something felt like it was knocking down walls inside of me trying to get out,

I feel happy and jovial after I hear it. I know it sounds weird but whatever.

I can go on and on about them, but you should really check them out for yourself.

*Side Note* I seemed to have forgotten that there is such a thing called Youtube, so here is the Video for Missing

The Worst day of my life.... thus far...

The worst day...

I was around 14 years old, I lived in westchester and went to High School in Manhattan, so every morning I would get up @ 6am and grab the Bus to 23rd Street. The ride was about an hour long so normally I would go to sleep while on the bus.

So one night on my way home I fell asleep, When I woke up I realized I had missed my bus stop and was way far from my house. I remember it was raining that night, and I was still new to westchester.

I got off at the next stop and called my house to try and get someone to pick me up

No one answered, I called my parents cell phone's and no answer. Being a lowly H.S student I had like no money on me to even take a bus.

I threw my hood over my head and with my shoulder slouched I started to walk toward the direction that my house was in. After a while of walking, I was soaked, my shoes were squeaking and my clothes were heavier, I tried calling home again, to no avail.

I have never felt so alone in my entire life.

So in the dark, while it rained, I kept walking and then I started to cry.

My sadness turned anger, my tears that came from feeling alone and deserted like no one cared became these angry tears.

I was mad at myself for crying, I was mad at my parents who didn't seem to notice that their child was mising. I was mad at how cliche it was to be crying in the rain at night.

I was angry at the universe.

Eventually my phone died, after about 2 hours of walking I got home. I walked into my house dripping, and there was my mom, so casual saying hello to me.

As if it was normal for me to walk in the house at 8pm, when I got out of school at 2:30 and usually got home by 4pm. I was Furious, I yelled for about 20 mins on how I had to walk all the way home in the rain.

All my mother had to tell me "who told you to fall asleep on the bus"

I stormed off to my room, My mother eventually said sorry and I got over it after a few days.

What I did learn was that the only one who's gonna be there for me is me.

If I had something to say to I'd whisper it softly..

10 Fave movies (at the Moment)

Random order

1. love +Hate
2. Penelope
3. Stardust
4. Kick Ass
5. I Love you, Man
6. Ameile
7. Shoot em up
8. Mirrormask
9. Forgetting Sarah Marshall
10. Mallrats

I was thinking about this in the car today and I thought I would share. So to make my life just that much more interesting I think I'm going to take Archery lessons, I found this place in Queens that teaches it and a bonus is that after the lesson I can head to Brooklyn to see my Great grandmother. She's so Great!

So yeah, I know what you might be thinking

"Really Delilah, Another hobby! This is getting ridiculous, how many more things are you going to take up!"

But I say to you this "Talk to the hand" & "I jus like being all diversified n shit."

Just kidding, but if that's how you see it, whatev's I enjoy a wide array of things to do, that way I always have something to practice, also you never know when your going to need it.

So as you may or may not know the Ice skating season is pretty much over, but Roller skating season is on! Lol skating officially starts June 4Th at EJ Murry rink in Yonkers, that's is where I will be on June 4Th. Can't Wait!

I'm going to be painting my Skates this week I haven't decided what yet but when I finish I will post a pic. ^_^ Later

*Side Note* I HATE the new NY Licence plates.

My hands are only extensions

Having some Rainy day/Rainbow fun today,

didn't this shot come out so cool!

So Bamboozle was Great and I totally got burnt, but it was so worth it.

Say Anything was FanFreakingTastic!

I love them so much.. sigh...

I wan to see then again and again. It's ridiculous.

Ok so on some Crafty like news,

I am planing on entering a craft fair on City Island more to come about that soon I'm working toward that right now.

I have to admit I am kind nervous about that, I know I have said this before so to quote myself "It's like slapping your heart down on a table and saying do your worst".

It's just plain scary...

Well thats all thats been going on right now.

Lates everyone!