So, Um, Whatever...

So I'm leaving today for Dublin! I'm so excited!!!

Although I do feel a slight scratchy-ness in the back of my throat. I really hope I'm not getting sick, that would suck, big time!

I think I'm going to take some dayquil just in case....

If I am sick I'm totally blaming my sister, she has been spreading her germs all around the house! ugh!!

She never covers her mouth when she coughs its so gross!

I really hope i'm not sick and this is just allergies or something.

Well thats all I have to say today! see yall soon!

Let's fight crime with mango's and Lime's

I have been listening to Plain White T's "1,2,3,4" non-stop...

It's a problem, I'm going to meetings once a week.

Anywho, Lately I have been kind of a social leper, I haven't left my house, which can't be good for my social life. SO tonight I went to visit my friend Banana at work.

I ended up staying and watching a movie.

Thank's Banana

My sister and I were discussing the fact that people are abnormal.

Everyone has a flaw somewhere, some are just better at hiding it.

My sister for example like little boys. Creepy....jk

She just likes younger guys.

This is what she looks like. just kidding!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

I've become content with this life that I lead, Where I drink to much and don't believe in much of anything...

Lately I have been crocheting up a storm. I made 2 hats!!

I am sooo proud of myself!

I printed out a pattern online and stayed in my room until I figured it out, which I did.

So now I want to learn how to knit. I will be taking classes in Feb when I get back from Ireland. I can not wait, until then I will be trying my hand at making a Afghan... Why is it called that AFGHAN... What does it even mean Aaaa..Ffff...Ggg..Hhhhh...Aaa...Nnn.

Why not just say blanket. What ever, I have to ge back to my Crocheting.

Look as these super cute T'shirt designs from...

http://www.craftster.org/

That's a Strange place for a Piano....

So lately I have been posting a lot more then usual.

I think that's cause I have a lot of things all jumbled in my mind right now.

Things are bugging me and I'm having a hard time sleeping at night.

I think my Insomnia is back.

It has to do with a thyroid condition I recently found out I have, but unfortunately I can't do much about it because I no longer have any health insurance. I feel myself getting a lot more personal on here then I normally get.

But whatever I need to get it out.

I think what it comes down to is that I feel like shit..

I haven't picked up my Diabolo in weeks, i haven't even juggled. They usually make me feel better when I feel like but it's like I can't bring myself to pick them up.

And the dreams....

They have been really vivid lately. It's like I cant sleep alot but when I do I remember so much, colors, places, people, the things that happen and what we say.

It's kind of insane...

Of Course MY Sister gets Powers!!

Mind Power,
originally uploaded by Fairyflames4.

Can you believe this!! I am the one thats into comic books and she get the mind powers!! ugh I am like so disgusted with my life right now. I want super powers!!!!!!

But with nobody in your bed, The night is hard to get through...

It'a 2 in the AM and I'm still awake...

I've been listening to a lot of Brand New lately.

My current favorite song is "The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot"

There's just something so honest about the lyrics.

"If it makes you less sad, I'll move out of this state. You can keep you yourself. I'll keep out of your way. And if it makes you less sad I'll take your pictures all down. Every picture you paint I will paint myself out.."

A close second would be "Sic Transit Gloria.. Glory fades"

"He whispers that he loves her, but she's probably only ready for Sss... So much more than he could ever give A life free of lies and a meaningful relationship. He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides He waits for it to end and for the aching in his guts to subside "

Can you say amazing, that songs makes me think about all the times in our lives that we do things to make other people happy, we push away our own pain and discomfort to satisfy the needs of others.

But tell me this, Who's going to satisfy your needs, If your always giving of yourself

HEY! Do I know you?

Have you ever seen someone in the street that you think you know and just want to run up to them and say

"Hey! Do I know you?"

Yeah, me neither.

I tend to avoid awkward-ness like that...

I probably won't remember their name, and then I'm all like... "Oh, Its you."

"Yeah... (awkward pause) How are you?"

Then they mumble something in response, I'm to busy trying to remember who they are to pay attention to what they are saying,

So then I'm like

"So, I never thought I would run into you here"

they they say "Why I've worked here for 9 years"

And then it snaps in your head, oh yeah....

they work at the video store that i used to go to all the time and this is their other job.

Now I have to backtrack and make up some lame ass excuse as to why I didn't realize who they were.

It's like a whole exhausting process that I want no part of.

Now that's not to say I'm anti-social, cause I not....Sometimes...

But it's like you haven't seen me in a small Milena, how do u still know who I am.

I don't even know how I started to write about this....

This hasn't happened to me recently.

How my brain works has to be a mystery of science.

Dude, I dont think I can handle all this magic....

I can't believe that in just a few weeks time, I will be hopping on a plane to Ireland, and spending a lovely week with Nix, also I have been working on these shirts that I bought and will be going into my shop when I'm done, I have to say they are Tre Cute-tatstic.

I will post some pics when I'm done with them which will hopefully be tonight, well till then, BYE!!!!

*Side Note*

Thanks to Banana I will be slamming all night.

lol she knows what I mean!