Hocus Pocus...

Happy Halloween!!!
This has to be one of my favorite holidays besides Christmas,
It's the one day a year where everyone is weird and no one judges them for it! lol

I love seeing all the costumes, I like to think that the costume that a person chooses reflects their personality.
this year for Halloween I was an owl, Nix was Cleopatra.I spent 2 days working on my costume, I'd like to think the effort was worth it!
I also hung out with my little cousin Bella... here are some pic's.
Tomorrow I start NaNoWriMo!
Which stands for National Novel Writing Month,
For the past two years I have participated in it and I have yet to finish a book,
I'm hoping that this is my year.
I'm going to have to write at least 12,500 words a week to reach my 50,000 word goal.
In order to do this I'm going to set aside an hour each day of pure writing time.
I'm really excited for this and I have been looking forward to it all month.
So wish me luck everyone!
I'm going to go watch Hocus Pocus (my favorite Halloween movie) to add the cherry on top of my... All Hollows Eve.

*Side Note* I think my mother was more excited about the Halloween caramel apples that she bought then Bells. lol

Be running up that road, Be running up that hill, Be running up that building.

It’s hard, trying to figure out what you want to do with the rest of your life.

I want to go back to school and get a degree in art therapy, I feel like it’s a really good fit for me. I am good at listening and I feel that art is a fantastic way to express yourself.

At the same time, there is so much more that I want to do… I think my problem (and I’m not trying to sound conceited in any way) is that I am really good at a lot of things and I want to do everything. Is that even feasible?

I draw, I paint, I bake, I craft, and I write.

I would like to become a writer and a book illustrator and the next week I want to open a coffee shop/ bakery. Ask me what I want to do a week later and I guarantee it will be something else. I like learning skills and gaining knowledge, I have a passion for that.

You have no idea how many half written stories I have on my computer and my drawings are slowly taking over my room. Don’t get me started on the books… Stacks of them everywhere, books on psychology, writing, crocheting, fiction, biographies, sewing, starting businesses, and knitting. Look in a corner of my room and you’ll see a book.

I’m in a very introspective mood right now. I don’t really know where I am going with this post anymore. Next month is NaNoWrMo (National Novel Writing Month) and every year I take part in it and every year I get discouraged at some point and give up but I get a little farther each time.

Last year’s book was about zombies (I’m kind of sad I didn’t finish it, every once in a while I open it up and write a little more in it) and this year I plan on writing about a song. I have started creating an outline for it and I am hoping that if I prepare ahead of time this year I will be able to finish it in the allotted time.

*Side note* How much are you loving Fall right now!

White demon love song's in her dreams....

I was just listening to White Demon Love Song by The Killers...
You know that moment when you hear a song that you've
heard before and for the first time you really hear it.
Well I just had one of those moments.
Its like waking up.
I haven't done a song interpretation in a while
So after letting the song encapsulate my brain I figured I would do one....

The song starts off by telling you a story of a girl that is in love
with someone that doesn't love her the same way
and the memory of him is haunting her.

White demon love song down the hall
White demon shadow on the road
Back up your mind, there is a call
He isn't coming after all
Love this time
She likes the way he sings
White demon love song's in her dreams

She misses him and when he walks back into her life
she is hesitant because of the pain that he caused her in the first place.
she realizes that she has placed him on a pedestal that he can not live up to.
All he ever brought her was tears.

White demon, where's your selfish kiss?
White demon sorrow will arrange
Let's not forget about the fear
Black invitation to this place that cannot change
While strangely holy, come for a rain

She tells him how much he hurt her
in hopes that he might see the error of his ways
She tells him that he will end up alone
if he keeps treating people with such disregard

(Darling)
White demon, widen your heart's scope
White demon, who let your friends go?
White demon, widen your heart's scope
White demon, who let your friends go?

She offers him one last chance, almost pleading with him.

Let us be in love
(Let us be in love)
Let's do old and grey
(Let's do old and grey)
I won't make you cry
(I won't make you cry)
I will never stray
(I will never stray)
I will do my part
(I will do my part)
Let us be in love tonight

White demon, widen your heart's scope
White demon, who let your friends go?
White demon, widen your heart's scope
White demon, who let your friends go?

(Stand it anymore, darling)
(Stand it)

He sees the dept to which he has hurt her and he decides that he wants to be with her
But she doesn't want to be with him, she just wanted the choice,
and she doesn't want to be with a man that she had to plead with to love her.
She tells him to learn to deal with the consequences of his actions.
She leaves feeling lighter.

(I can't stand it anymore, darling)
(Stand it)

What do you think?
I went to songmeanings.com to see if someone else had gotten the same thing from the song
but the people there are either comparing it to twilight or hating on the twilight people.
Truth is music is interpreted by the person that is listening to it and sometimes they make it mean what they need it to mean.

Psychic Reading

She started off by telling me
"Your stubborn and when you want to get things done you do.
Your a very productive person, you are always doing some thing. You like to keep busy but I see that you have been stuck in a place that is not good for you involving your career..."

The she asked me where I was working and I told her.
"I see new things happening for you in your career something different from what you are doing now, before the end of this year a job in the arts."

"right now this is the time for your career and friends, I see new friends coming into your life but keep your old friends they are genuine people"

"As far as love I see two people in your past that really hurt you, One still thinks about you because you were the only person that made an effort to be with him and the other person you were genuine with and he didn't know how to be with you, He was the kind of person that doesn't know how to be in a relationship, I also see an issue with substance abuse, I see that he isn't in the right state of mind and I don't see the relationship turning into anything. "

"There are a lot of men around you right now but you have not meet the "One".
You will be married in two years and before the end of the year you will meet the "One" he will have dark hair and dark eyes"

"I see you moving" then she asked me what my living situation was like.
"I see you living with friends but the your moving before the end of this year"

So that was my reading, apparently a lot of things are going to be happening for me by the end of this year. My issue with getting psychic readings is does knowing create a self fulfilling prophecy?

Although I will say she was spot on about how I was feeling about my work situation.
The thing is she's really consistent with her readings like last time I was there almost a year ago she said I was going to be married in 3 years and now its 2 years.
Well lets see what happens? ^_^

so I always shall remember him....

So today I was thinking about my past relationships...
Every once in a while I do this..
The reason I did this was because a song came on the radio and it reminded me of someone.
So I thought I might be fun to make a small list of people that I once dated and the thing that reminds me of them.
Here we go!

St- Coldstone
Chi- Roller blades
Pl- A trinity knot necklace
A- Spearmint gum
Ju- Jimmy Eat world- Night drive
P- Sara Bareilles- Love song
E- Bruce Willis
Sn- Max Bemis and the Painful Splits- Do the Dohnk
J- Eisley- I Wish

Even though they are no longer in my life they still have a place in my memory.

My Sister's 18th!!

Today my sister is 18 years old...

Its really strange for me to say that, it feels like shes still 12 years old..
but shes only 2 years from 20.
Blows my mind.
I am proud of the young woman she has started to become
and
I can't wait to see the young woman she will be.
So on this day...
Happy birthday Angelia
(aka Monkey aka Lea aka Pip aka Angeloser aka Lee)
I love you!
^_^
(After looking at some pictures of my sister and I,
we always seem to be on the same sides of our most of out pictures.. weird)

Deep in the thick of it...

This past Sunday,

I took a little trip to the Brooklyn Flea Market with My sister and my friend Mira. On the way there we passed this little indoor artist market.
It was pretty rad, I saw this guy who had on a outfit that I would want to grace my own closet, sometimes I wish I was bolder with my fashion choices.After walking around the artist market and exploring the goods at the flea, we took a walk in the small park right next to the flea and hung out by the water where I proceeded to harass my Mira and Angelia with my camera.Then we headed over to Van Leeuwen's for some Ice cream I tried the Earl Gray, and it was Amazing!
All in all a really great day, it was the kind of simple day that you look back on and remember it fondly, even thought we did nothing Extraordinary it was a great day.
I hope that your weekends are as Awesome as mine!!

Sometimes Goodbye is a Second Chance...

Sorry Blog.... I have been ignoring you...
Anyway for a few moments in time I was thinking about just packing a bag and driving away. Away from everything I know and just start new somewhere.
The thought was really appealing.
It kind of startled me how willing I was to grab some things and leave.
It wasn't scary and I wasn't worried about what would happen to me
because I feel like not matter what I would be okay.
Do people still do this... I'm sure they are the brave ones.
People that have no ties to the place they reside.
I have too many ties here.

So I just finished Neil Gaiman's "Anansi Boys" It was really good, every time I read a new Gaimen book, my love for him grows just that much more.
Here is an interview with him and Craig Ferguson.