I'm really upset right now, I'm just thinking about my knee and googling everything I can possibly find on ACL injury's. I know I am being obsessive, but I just want to get better.
I'm worried that my knee will never be the same.
All the things I read online are putting into my head that my ACL is torn and If its torn bad enough I could need surgery. I am so over this shit.
I don't want to have surgery nor can I afford it. I am in this horrible place mentally. All I do is think about my knee.
I went to the emergency room in South Dakota, and this is probably the New Yorker in me, but I feel like the doctor kind of dismissed me to quickly.
So I feel like he didn't carefully look over the xrays.
He said it was just a bad sprain.
He wanted me to walk on it right away and I was in such pain that I really wasn't capable.
He gave me a ace bandage and a boot out of the hospital.
Granted my knee does feel a lot better then when I was in SD,
but what if it's healing wrong or It really is torn.
I still can't fully extend my leg and that worries the shit out of me.
But I have no Insurance , so how am I supposed to know how it's progressing.
If you know me then you know my mind runs a thousand miles a minute.
So imagine how I'm feeling right now..
So I am in Crazy lady panic mode... but you wouldn't know it by looking at me.
*Side note* What if I never walk normally again.....
1 comment:
You'll be fine! Use the stress to focus on healing properly instead of just stressing about it. Im positive that if you knee was not healing right, you would know it so the fact that you can tell that its a bit better, is a good sign. Dont stress about surgery or anything like that, you can cross that bridge when you get there, IF you ever get there. You'll be fine, no matter what, you'll see...
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