Up up and Away?

So there has been a lot of talk in the household of moving to Virginia.
This is something I am opposed to, Honestly, there is nothing for me there..

I mean my EMT licence is for NY and you can't get that transferred.
It's not like I'm trying to be difficult It's just that its so far from everything I love.
Virginia is not a city like NY, I wouldn't mind moving to Chicago, Florida or even Cali.

But how do you move a girl that grew up in Brooklyn, NY to Virginia.....?

They are not even comparable!

Anyway... Lately I have been getting back into drawing, I had kind of stopped because I have been super into crocheting. Here are some pictures of Crochet project i have been working on!!

The Raspberry Beret!

Granny Squares..

The Brighton Cowel

I haven't been taking a lot of pictures or blogging lately, I feel like i just don't have time and that makes me sad.

It's not what this looks like....

So lately I have been super busy trying to get my life into gear.
All work and no play make Delilah...
Totally bored with her reality...
This is my plan for tomorrow...

1. Take a look at my bike and see what kind of condition it is in.
(Example: Air in tires, Brakes work and so on and so forth)
2. Hula Hoop
3. Take an over Due book back to the Library...
4. Work on finishing Baby blanket..
5. Go to the Old Navy in Eastchester.
6. Try not to spend a lot of cash at the Old Navy in Eastchester.
7. Practice my Spanish.
8. Upload photo's on Flickr..
9. Go to camera shop in Tarrytown and get a few camera straps
10. Apply for Volunteer EMT Position..
and Number 11....( Drum Roll)
... Ehhhh Oh Wait, I dont have a numer 11...

Harde har har

So Yeah, as you can tell I am super Busy...
I don't think I'll be able to get through these things, and I know what your thinking!
"What do you mean you won't be able to get all of these things done! I have 4 kids I work overtime and I don't remember what it's like to go outside!"
Well I say this to you mother who is reading my blog, one What are you doing reading my blog you have 4 Kids! And Second, You have to factor in that I dont wake up until like 3 pm...jk!

Side Note* I am really diggin 3Oh!3 right now!

Goodbye: The word you're wielding like a knife...

I totally feel like I am in overdrive lately...

with work and all these events coming up it's like

"Ok, take a moment and breathe"

Mother's Day is around the corner and I still have yet to get my mother anything...

My Aunt's Baby Shower is in a few weeks

and the Baby blanket I have been working on is still a ways off from being done...

I have to start turning in applications for EMT work.

Nix will be home June 5Th and I have to get her from the Airport.

I have to get medical coverage which I have been putting off.

I need to get a check up like for reals.

So I really need to take a few moments and just kinda get myself together.

So yeah..

a Happy note!

I got a hair cut!

I like it but my mom hates it.

So shes kinda been riding me about it,

but like really what would you like me to do

It's not like I can make my hair grow super fast just to appease her.

I am totally going to own it. I dig it and that is really all that matters in this situation.

I kinda feel like riding a bike tomorrow, but I dont think my bike is in good condition right now.

So I might just go rollerblading tomorrow insead.

When I was younger I used to rollerblade all the time,

but then my parents moved me to Westchester..

Which is mostly Hills....

Which sucks for rollerblading....well that is unless you have a death wish.

But in my recent travels,

I found this concreate trail where people ride bikes and run on

so I thought I might go there and embarass myself.

Lol.

This is going to be an adventure.....

OMG! Oh wait, I thought that was a ghost....

Let's see...

I'm at point in my life that everyone gets to.

It's that slow realisation that it's crunch time, Time is running out to decide what want to do when I grow up because guess what.... I am grown up.

People my age are just starting to start the chosen careers, and here I am being a total slacker.

So I think I going to start getting serious and start getting into my EMT work.

It's scary and exciting at the same time.

I feel like I need to brush up on all my skills.

So I'm going to start studying and practicing my skills.

Ok so moving on from that.... I totally got a hula hoop!

I went to Dube a week ago and got a Mini Diabolo and a hula hoop. It breaks down into 4 Peices so its super portable and the weather is getting really nice....In fact if I really wanted to I can go to the park and hula hoop. ^_^

Speaking of Diabolos...

One of my friends, one that will not be named (but her nickname sounds like danana) still has one of my Diabolos!!!

I would like it back one day missy...... hmm... hmmm.....

Well Ok I think thats really all I have to say right now..... Later!

Side note* My Grandfather's death day was yesterday, I love you Grandpa!

Thinking and thinking.....my brain doesn't stop....

I'm going to get deep here....

Career:
Lately I have been putting a lot of things into perspective. I have been slacking off with my career(EMS) I think I am afraid that I'm not good enough. I will be putting someones life in my hands, What if I make a mistake, a mistake that could potentially end someone Else's life, could I handle that responsibility?.... I guess it is normal to have these kinds of fears, at least i hope it is.

Love:
I am tired of being hurt, I know I wasn't meant to be someones doormat. It's like I have string attached to my heart, every time I begin to really like someone a new string gets attached, when they disappoint me the string gets tugged and depending on the hurt I get a sharp pain, a tear in the muscle , a rip or a chunk pulled out of my heart. My heart must look like road kill, part of that is my fault, I am too forgiving, too accepting of peoples flaws, too easy to hurt.

Life:
The people that surround me are either popping out children, in committed relationships, in college, or starting their career. And here I am a single 22 year old with too many dreams to fit into one lifetime, an artist that does nothing with her talent, I know who I am but I have a fear of not being accepted, for to many years I was told I was strange or weird, but I love those strange a weird quirks about myself, that makes me who I am.

Wicked Cool Awesomeness

Busy busy week for me, I went to lunch with banana, I bought a new shelf and installed it myself thank u very much.
I also came upon new juggling balls in the most unlikely of places..The Container Store... they are filled with glitter and water, they look really cool.

Also some things I am considering getting into:
Fire breathing/Fire eating
Contact juggling
Circus EMT....I don't know if that exist
Knitting (It seems hard)

I think my mother is seriously getting worried that I am going to run away and join the circus. We were talking the other day I was telling her how I was looking to see if I needed a permit to be a street performer she turned to me and said
"you should really be focusing on your career"
(getting an EMT position)
I replied "I am" after a pause I started to laugh hysterically.
She laughed and said it wasn't funny, but it was.

Side note*
I am seriously disappointed by the lack of juggling programs/clubs in Westchester. I was on Google a whole afternoon looking for one and alas nothing. I have to trek all the way to the city... which is a good 20 to 45 minutes away depending on traffic. Maybe I should start my own juggling club...hmmmmm....

If I took the pepsi challange...I'd pick Coke....

I'm leaving on Saturday!!

I have been driving myself insane looking for film for this camera I have recently acquired.

The camera in question is the Polaroid Mio, they don't make this camera any more and the film for it is even more obsolete.

So after a little more research i discovered that fujifilm makes a film that fits in the Mio.

There is just a small snag, its only sold in Japan and Europe. Just fantastic.

I have been having dreams of film, last night I drempt of a white Polaroid camera,

now i want one.

So on my trip to Europe I will be getting a ton of Fujifilm Instax Mini film. I will be stopping in Vienna's Lomography store to get some. I was also thinking of getting a fisheye camera... this is still up for debate....

I have good news for ya, I am officially an EMT!!

I got my card in the mail a few days ago. Awesomeness!!

Also, I am amped for Nick and Norah's Infinite Play list opening this Friday.Wahoo.

I Passed!!!

I Passed My Practical Skills Exam!!!! Yay! Now all I have to do is pass the Written and I am done!!!! So to celebrate I now am the proud owner of pink streaks in my hair.


TADA!

All Work & No Play

Makes this week the week from hell...

I have my EMT practical skills exam this week for the state and I am so stressed out over it. I have to do 6 stations

Station 1 through 4 are as follows:

1. Trauma Assessment

2. Medical Assessment

3. Automatic External Defribulator

4. Bag Valve Mask

Now with stations 5 and 6 there isn't one set thing to do, you can be quizzed on any one of the following so for 5 it is a or b, and for 6 it is a through g.

5. a.Spine immobilization with a K.E.D

or

b. Spine Immobilization with a long board

6. a.Splinting a Leg or Arm

b. Splinting a Joint

c. Traction Splinting

d. Bleeding and shock control

e. Managing the Airway

f. Mouth to mask with O2

g. Administering O2

This is because they want to make your life a living hell!!!!

They cant just say here do this. No they have to play a game with your head and say ha-ha you have to do one of these.....cue evil laughter.

To add to my misery I have caught a horrible cold, I sat on my floor for an hour because I couldn't find the energy to get up. I felt like I was on fire and I was in and out of sleep all night. I am praying that I get over this but tomorrow, I really need to focus all my energy into my practicals!

All Geeked out...

I got home from my EMT class early on Monday night and I walk in to find my mother watching a show called " The Big Bang Theory" so I threw myself on the couch and started to watch it with her. Now I have a new favorite show. Apparently it was out a while ago but because of my crazy sched I never got to watch it. I miss watching TV.

Side Note:
There was a point for about a year where I was home doing absolutely nothing, I would wake up at Noon, go pick up my sister at 2:45, then I would lay around my house till 8 and then I would go hang out with my Ex (my BF at the time) or with my friends.Sometime I would even go to the gym. Life was so simple......

Back to The Big Bang Theory, so I was sitting on the couch watching the show and I was just laughing hysterically, My mother turns to me and says

"you know I have tried to watch this show a few times and I never really get half the things they are talking about, Do I have to be like you to understand it."

Whoa wait a Minute, what does that mean?? I don't know if that is a complement or an insult. Honestly, I stopped caring about how people perceive me, my Family/Friends know and love me and that's all that counts!

Here's a list of my fave shows:
1. Heroes
2. The Big Bang Theory
3. C.S.I: Las Vegas
4. How it's Made
5. True Life
6.Kyle XY

7. Greek
Question: T.V. Is it evil or entertaining... you be the judge.

De De Dedede de de de dee de (Circus theme song)

I Don't know if you know this but I have been a fan of circus arts for many years now. I taught myself how to juggle and also to use the Diabolo, Secretly I have always wanted to join the circus. I know right now you must be thinking.... " what is wrong with this girl, she is training to become an EMT, she creates art, she is learning the Violin, works full time, what else could she possibly do??" ......Well, I will tell you, I want to become a circus performer. Very recently, on a Google search, I discovered a link to http://www.nycircusarts.com/ .

Ahhhh... the Big Top....

It is almost like it was meant to be, so I quickly informed some friends and family about my current endeavors and I got the usual: "yeah sure" "that's cool" responses, but then I got one from my friend Anna-banana that went like so " Cool, maybe we can do it together" In my head I had an instant party. I was like Totally Awesome! But before I can start the C.A. classes I want to finish my EMT classes. So I am thinking toward the end of august I should be able to start. I'm soooo Pumped! I'm the mean time I am going to focus on getting into shape. Working out building up my arm strength, losing weight eating right, all that good stuff.

You know what they say: Anything worth having is worth fighting for. (I think that's how it goes...)

Mimes read the news too...

Look at me I'm so meant to be in the circus, this is one of my favest outfits!

and you were saying.....

I have been swept up in a whirlwind... life has been coming at me from every angle and without mercy. I resumed my EMT Classes and as of lately i have been crazed at work, people have missed appointments then i get yelled at, I'm running from here to there and then back again....sigh...but secretly i enjoy being busy.

Last Saturday me and my family had a garage sale and it was the perfect excuse to bake cupcakes. i have been dying to try this new recipe from Hershey.

The Cupcakes came out yum-tastic, i made Vanilla and Chocolate, my sister kept helping herself to them(BTW, You owe me $3). lol

My friends Nikki and Sharon are home so we plan on getting into trouble together, and me and Nix are going to Shares Gaelic football game tonight so that should be fun.

It seems to me that Murphy's law (what can go wrong, will go wrong) has once again ruined my life. i am being slightly melodramatic but I'm entitled. As you know last night i had my final exam, as you may have already guessed....it didn't go as well as predicted.....i failed by 1 point. one lousy, stinking, dumb point. The passing grade is 70....i got a 69. Unbelievable!!!!!!!!!!!!! So now i don't know what this means for me, i have to call later today and find out whats going on, am i dropped from the class or am i still in it..... who knows!

i did make a promise to myself though, if i get dropped from the class i am going to become a runner. Yeah, i know slightly random but that's how its going down.....

On a brighter note, i have a new project in mind, i was inspired by the website Uncommon goods. a super cool website filled with things that i want and can't afford. lol. but they have this really cool name type thing where they spell your name with pictures of things that u wouldn't normally take a second look at... so i decided that i can do the same thing and just as good! so i have been looking at everything in a whole new perspective, anything has the capability to be letters ahahahahahahahaha! so that's all for now write to ya soon!

Sorry dudes, my bad!

Hey so I'm sorry i haven't been blogging on the reg, i have been crazzzzy busy, between my sisters confirmation, studying and even a date (more on that later), i feel like i have no time to myself. i have had a lot to think about within the last few weeks, my EMT classes are almost over and i have a huge test tonight, i know my mom wants me to jump right into becoming an EMT but i find myself taking an step back and saying to myself, "whoa, do you want to do this right now." and then i realize....i really like the job i have right now, yeah OK sure its not the most glamorous job ever but the pays great and i like all the people i work with! I'm Happy. i have a lot of things i want to accomplish within the current year:

1. Finish getting EMT certified.
2. Save up to go to Europe for 3 weeks in October
3. Move out of my parents house and get my own place.
4. Possibly take a college course over the summer.
5. Find some one that appreciates me and can deal with my Independence and pride.

These things are almost all within my grip except for #5. that is an impossibility

One of my life long goals has always been to own this old abandoned police station in Brooklyn...a dream i know may never come true but i still have hope. the building is amazing and i find it to be beautiful! i used to live a block away from it as a kid it has sooo much potential but it seems no one wants to be bothered. i know this sounds a little weird but i feel like me and this building are ment to be together....wow, i sound crazy.... lol ok i think i have left you with enough weirdness for today, wish me luck on my test and i will write for you soon!!

Random moment!

I was in the city Tuesday night, i was driving to my EMT class and i decided i wanted to take pics of the city as i drove. so here they are:

A Major in complaining with a Minor in venting

There is this woman in my EMT Class and she is sooooooo f#$!ing annoying!!!!

She is nosey, crude, rude, self centered, prying, ugh u name it she's it. She insist upon talking to me when it is clear that i don't want to be bothered. She is what i consider to be super ghetto and she tells everyone her life story like they care, Its like i don't care about the bad choices you made in your life. Oh, your babies daddy is off in Cuba some where, well he got going when the going was good! Come on, if that was me i would have gone 2. Ugh!

Now that doesn't mean that i condone fathers abandoning their children, i mean you took part in making the child you should own up and be a responsible parent, but in the case of this girl you would understand.

This is a prime example of when she talks to you:

"Yeah, i was in the army and I'm a mom and a dad, i have a 4yr old that i named Brandon because of that show 90210" "Oh, OK I just asked if i can use your pen to sign in..."

So just rambles and rambles and is sooo conceited. shes the type of person that tell will you " i think i need to lose some weight" because she wants you to tell her, "Why? you look great" when in reality she doesn't. i don't want to sound mean but as you can see that is unavoidable.

Then she sits their and does this, let me set the scene:

I am sitting down filling out some paper work, and she is trying to get back to her seat. i stand up to let her pass and she says "How did you do on the test?" to which i reply" Well, i wish i would have done better"

Now at that point a normal person would have been like oh ok.... but not her...

"so what did you get?". i stared at her for a moment and replied "Well i didn't do as well as i had expected to do" "Yeah i know but what did you get?" " i got a 75!" " oh ok..."

I mean it was so obvious that i didn't feel like sharing, but she was soo f*$#ing persistent, i just wanted her to get out of my face. The nerve of some people. So yeah i hope she falls into a pit of zombies. and for now that is all i have to update. talk to ya soon!