Halcyon days

This is my first time writing here in a little over 8 months. Its strange you can do something so constant for so long and then one day you stop. 

You just stop. 

I found my one great love, I started a new job and tried a lot of new things.

I have barely had time to remember my name.

Today I made a decision to quit my job, I had grown to hate it and hate the person it made me.

Bitter, Angry, Depressed and massively unhappy with myself.

I was lashing out at the people I love so much and they could see a change in me.

I was miserable.

I have never quit a job before, that's not the type of person I am but here I am.

A testament to how unhappy it made me.

I don't think its fully hit me that I have escaped. 

Tomorrow is my last day there and I think when I leave, a sense of joy will wash over me.

Today I was listening to a song by The Paper Kites called "Halcyon"

I knew the song was based on a Greek myth so I googled it and this is what I found...

The ancient Greek myth of Halcyon is a tender story of love and commitment, which explains the Halcyon sunny days of calm seas and winds. The Halcyon days or Alkionides Meres, as Greeks call them, appear in mid January every year.

Halcyon: calm; peaceful; tranquil.

Also

The phrase Halcyon days today also signifies prosperity, joy, liberation and, of course, tranquility.

 This year Halcyon days started on the 20th of January and it continues for a seven days.

I think there is a beautiful irony that I should decide to liberate myself from this job at this time.

I think the universe pushed me to take the step I was hesitant to take.

Working

So I started a new job, I didn't mention until now because I didn't want to jinx it but now that it's slightly more secure and I've been doing it for about a month now I feel i can talk about it, the one downside to this job is that it's only for the summer, I'm really hoping it leads to something full time because I really enjoy working with this company.

Now you may be wondering l

"what do you do at your new job?"

Well I am responsible for coordinating activities for international students that are visiting NY to learn english also for acting as a representative for my company.

I have loved meeting people from different cultures and backgrounds, it's really enriching, I've already made a few friends with some of my groups, everyone is really great and receptive to learning new things.

I also get to run around the city and so far I've been to top of the rock 4 times and to the statue of liberty. It's pretty awesome.

Boundaries...

This weekend my phone was invaded.... with phone calls from my boss. He was calling me incessantly. I have a policy...
I don't answer work calls on the weekends. That's my personal time. My boss has developed an very unhealthy attachment to me
and it would be a disservice,
not only me but to him as well, if I answered all the time.
He has called me to ask me how to back up his vacation pictures onto his computer and I'm just like that's not my job. So I come to work today to discover the reason behind his incessant calling. His daughter had a school project and he wanted me to type it up...
Wait... What? Really... Are you serious?

I'm just over this job, Ugh, I feel like I'm painting my boss in a bad light.
He's a really nice guy which is why I don't mind going out of my way for him
but at some point I have to draw a line and I am totally at that point...
I've been looking for a new job but at this point in time nothing has come up.
Hopefully something will pop up and I can escape what is becoming my hell...
I know when I start to feel this way,
it's time to find something else and fast.

In other news...
Nanowrimo is coming along, not as well as I had hopes for but I will keep at it.

Psychic Reading

She started off by telling me
"Your stubborn and when you want to get things done you do.
Your a very productive person, you are always doing some thing. You like to keep busy but I see that you have been stuck in a place that is not good for you involving your career..."

The she asked me where I was working and I told her.
"I see new things happening for you in your career something different from what you are doing now, before the end of this year a job in the arts."

"right now this is the time for your career and friends, I see new friends coming into your life but keep your old friends they are genuine people"

"As far as love I see two people in your past that really hurt you, One still thinks about you because you were the only person that made an effort to be with him and the other person you were genuine with and he didn't know how to be with you, He was the kind of person that doesn't know how to be in a relationship, I also see an issue with substance abuse, I see that he isn't in the right state of mind and I don't see the relationship turning into anything. "

"There are a lot of men around you right now but you have not meet the "One".
You will be married in two years and before the end of the year you will meet the "One" he will have dark hair and dark eyes"

"I see you moving" then she asked me what my living situation was like.
"I see you living with friends but the your moving before the end of this year"

So that was my reading, apparently a lot of things are going to be happening for me by the end of this year. My issue with getting psychic readings is does knowing create a self fulfilling prophecy?

Although I will say she was spot on about how I was feeling about my work situation.
The thing is she's really consistent with her readings like last time I was there almost a year ago she said I was going to be married in 3 years and now its 2 years.
Well lets see what happens? ^_^

dum spiro spero (while I breathe, I hope)

Do you ever feel already buried deep

Six feet under scream

But no one seems to hear a thing

I feel like that... I feel restless

I am getting this nagging feeling that I usually get before I quit a job...

I am trying to figure out what I really want...

I'm going to try and work up the nerve and talk to my boss tomorrow.

Hopefully it goes over well...

I feel bad for leaving my boss but at some point

you have to do what your heart is telling and you.

And right now my heart is screaming at the top of it's lungs.

I have to do what is best for me and I think what is best for me is to move on.

I want to go back to school get a new job and kinda start fresh.

I suppose every one's kinda feeling that way right now though.

New year and all.

I just don't want to look back and think "Why did I waste my time with that?"

I am really excited for the changes I feel that are headings in my direction.

*Fingers crossed*

I know in my heart that this is the right choice for me..

My Latest Work

Let me know what you guys think, I have better pictures on my flick, the link is in the side bar.

Critique's welcome!!

Blogity bloggy blog

I know I know, I haven't blogged in a little more then a week. I am truly sry.

But I know you will find it in the evil little place inside you to forgive me

(Thanks in advance)
Anywho...

Lots and lots have been going on.

Thanksgiving was great, I ate to much and then had leftovers of it the next day and the day after that and then after that....

It is safe to say that I will not be wanting any turkey till next year.

Till then bring on the chicken!

Also on a bit of a sad note, I was given my two weeks notice last week.

It was great while it lasted. ^_^.

I think the thing that I am going to miss most is my awesome boss, Larry.

Totally one of the coolest ever.

But you gotta roll with the punches...

On a lighter note. Gas is super cheap!! Finally!

Well I think that is all for now. Laterz!

*Side note: I think I'm going to watch Beauty and the Beast tonight

All Work & No Play

Makes this week the week from hell...

I have my EMT practical skills exam this week for the state and I am so stressed out over it. I have to do 6 stations

Station 1 through 4 are as follows:

1. Trauma Assessment

2. Medical Assessment

3. Automatic External Defribulator

4. Bag Valve Mask

Now with stations 5 and 6 there isn't one set thing to do, you can be quizzed on any one of the following so for 5 it is a or b, and for 6 it is a through g.

5. a.Spine immobilization with a K.E.D

or

b. Spine Immobilization with a long board

6. a.Splinting a Leg or Arm

b. Splinting a Joint

c. Traction Splinting

d. Bleeding and shock control

e. Managing the Airway

f. Mouth to mask with O2

g. Administering O2

This is because they want to make your life a living hell!!!!

They cant just say here do this. No they have to play a game with your head and say ha-ha you have to do one of these.....cue evil laughter.

To add to my misery I have caught a horrible cold, I sat on my floor for an hour because I couldn't find the energy to get up. I felt like I was on fire and I was in and out of sleep all night. I am praying that I get over this but tomorrow, I really need to focus all my energy into my practicals!

and you were saying.....

I have been swept up in a whirlwind... life has been coming at me from every angle and without mercy. I resumed my EMT Classes and as of lately i have been crazed at work, people have missed appointments then i get yelled at, I'm running from here to there and then back again....sigh...but secretly i enjoy being busy.

Last Saturday me and my family had a garage sale and it was the perfect excuse to bake cupcakes. i have been dying to try this new recipe from Hershey.

The Cupcakes came out yum-tastic, i made Vanilla and Chocolate, my sister kept helping herself to them(BTW, You owe me $3). lol

My friends Nikki and Sharon are home so we plan on getting into trouble together, and me and Nix are going to Shares Gaelic football game tonight so that should be fun.