Hey so I'm sorry i haven't been blogging on the reg, i have been crazzzzy busy, between my sisters confirmation, studying and even a date (more on that later), i feel like i have no time to myself. i have had a lot to think about within the last few weeks, my EMT classes are almost over and i have a huge test tonight, i know my mom wants me to jump right into becoming an EMT but i find myself taking an step back and saying to myself, "whoa, do you want to do this right now." and then i realize....i really like the job i have right now, yeah OK sure its not the most glamorous job ever but the pays great and i like all the people i work with! I'm Happy. i have a lot of things i want to accomplish within the current year:
1. Finish getting EMT certified.
2. Save up to go to Europe for 3 weeks in October
3. Move out of my parents house and get my own place.
4. Possibly take a college course over the summer.
5. Find some one that appreciates me and can deal with my Independence and pride.
These things are almost all within my grip except for #5. that is an impossibility
One of my life long goals has always been to own this old abandoned police station in Brooklyn...a dream i know may never come true but i still have hope. the building is amazing and i find it to be beautiful! i used to live a block away from it as a kid it has sooo much potential but it seems no one wants to be bothered. i know this sounds a little weird but i feel like me and this building are ment to be together....wow, i sound crazy.... lol ok i think i have left you with enough weirdness for today, wish me luck on my test and i will write for you soon!!
Showing posts with label Dream. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Dream. Show all posts
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Monday, March 31, 2008
A walk through hell.....
So i have been working on my dream piece this weekend, which was tough because Saturday March 29th, i was at a Say Anything concert (Insert fan scream here). i was on line @ the nokia theater from 2:30pm till 6pm when the doors opened, They show was Amazing!!! They even sang a old song called " A walk through Hell" One of the most inspiring songs ever written. Max Bemis was hot as hell as always....emo tear.....too bad he has a GF.
Anyways..... I think I'm going to do a series of paintings based off that song, ill include the lyrics at the end of the blog so you can see what I'm talking about. So yeah i don't know how this turned into a post about the concert but somehow it did....... so I'm still working on my dream painting, i have redone it twice and now its turned into this kind of abstract version of my dream, but that's ok. I'm working on an art board because i cant stand canvas sometimes and I'm also using acrylic paints and that reminds me that i need to swing by Michael's to pick up some more paint.....i ran out of dark blue.......I also need to study.....Ugh...how can life suck and be awesome at the same time!
A walk through hell lyrics: Enjoy!
And if I could swim, I'd swim out to you in the ocean,
Swim out to where you were floating in the dark.
And if I was blessed, I'd walk on the water you're breathing,
To lend you some air for that heaving, sunken chest.
'Cause they chose you as the model for their empty little dreams,
With your new head and your legs spread like a filthy magazine.
And they hunt you, and they gut you, and you give in.
And if I was brave, I'd climb up to you on the mountain,
They led you to drink from their fountain spouting lies.
And I'd slay the horrible beast they commissioned
To steer me away from my mission to your eyes.
and I'd stand there, like a soldier, with my foot upon his chest,
With my grin spread, and my arms out, in my bloodstained Sunday's best,
And you'd hold me; I'd remind you who you are under their shell.
I'd walk through hell for you, let it burn right through my shoes
These soles are useless without you
Through hell for you, let the torturing ensue;
My soul is useless without you...
And if they send a whirlwind, I'd hug it like a harmless little tree.
Or an earthquake, I'd calm it, and I'd bring you back to me.
And I'd hold you in my weak arms like a first born.
I'd walk through hell for you, let it burn right through my shoes,
These soles are useless without you
Through hell for you, let the torturing ensue;
My soul is useless without you...Through hell for you
Through hell for you
Without you, without you...Through hell for you.
Without you...Through hell for you
Now I've walked through hell for you.
What's an adventurer to do, But rest these feet at home with you?
Anyways..... I think I'm going to do a series of paintings based off that song, ill include the lyrics at the end of the blog so you can see what I'm talking about. So yeah i don't know how this turned into a post about the concert but somehow it did....... so I'm still working on my dream painting, i have redone it twice and now its turned into this kind of abstract version of my dream, but that's ok. I'm working on an art board because i cant stand canvas sometimes and I'm also using acrylic paints and that reminds me that i need to swing by Michael's to pick up some more paint.....i ran out of dark blue.......I also need to study.....Ugh...how can life suck and be awesome at the same time!
A walk through hell lyrics: Enjoy!
And if I could swim, I'd swim out to you in the ocean,
Swim out to where you were floating in the dark.
And if I was blessed, I'd walk on the water you're breathing,
To lend you some air for that heaving, sunken chest.
'Cause they chose you as the model for their empty little dreams,
With your new head and your legs spread like a filthy magazine.
And they hunt you, and they gut you, and you give in.
And if I was brave, I'd climb up to you on the mountain,
They led you to drink from their fountain spouting lies.
And I'd slay the horrible beast they commissioned
To steer me away from my mission to your eyes.
and I'd stand there, like a soldier, with my foot upon his chest,
With my grin spread, and my arms out, in my bloodstained Sunday's best,
And you'd hold me; I'd remind you who you are under their shell.
I'd walk through hell for you, let it burn right through my shoes
These soles are useless without you
Through hell for you, let the torturing ensue;
My soul is useless without you...
And if they send a whirlwind, I'd hug it like a harmless little tree.
Or an earthquake, I'd calm it, and I'd bring you back to me.
And I'd hold you in my weak arms like a first born.
I'd walk through hell for you, let it burn right through my shoes,
These soles are useless without you
Through hell for you, let the torturing ensue;
My soul is useless without you...Through hell for you
Through hell for you
Without you, without you...Through hell for you.
Without you...Through hell for you
Now I've walked through hell for you.
What's an adventurer to do, But rest these feet at home with you?
Friday, March 28, 2008
Painting out my Dream..
For a while now i have had this idea for a painting, i can see it in my head but i can seem to get it out onto paper or canvas though i have made a few attempts at it. The idea is based off a dream i had...the dream goes like this......
Dream:
I was on a golden submarine and i was wearing a cream colored dress, that had very intricate beading all around the skirt, my hair was loose and fell into mahogany waves around my face. I looked around and noticed the very detailed carvings in the golden walls, their were sea creatures and mermaids perched upon rocks, everything was so beautiful it was hard to pay attention to what was going around me.
I wasn't alone, two women and the captain of the submarine were there, the two women were pregnant and when i looked down so was i. He said something to me that i couldn't understand. Then the two women grabbed me as the captain opened a hatch in the floor that lead to the outside of the submarine and into the deep sea. I struggled in their grasp but they did not budge. They threw me into the water, which was surprisingly warm, and closed the hatch. i started floating downward, the blue darkness embracing me, i could breathe but i was surrounded by water. The submarine was still above me, its golden light radiating like a star in the night sky, i looked into the round window of the submarine and looking back at me were the two women and the captain. the captain walked away from the window and started the controls of the ship. The submarine started to glide away from me and i started to swim toward it, but it just kept going without stopping. Leaving me there.... Alone.
I know it was a crazy, and very detailed dream. i have always had dreams like this, when i was younger they used to scare me but now i just accept them, and try to decipher them....lol that never works. So yeah this is going to be my goal for this weekend...work on the still image in my mind.. Wish me Luck!
Dream:
I was on a golden submarine and i was wearing a cream colored dress, that had very intricate beading all around the skirt, my hair was loose and fell into mahogany waves around my face. I looked around and noticed the very detailed carvings in the golden walls, their were sea creatures and mermaids perched upon rocks, everything was so beautiful it was hard to pay attention to what was going around me.
I wasn't alone, two women and the captain of the submarine were there, the two women were pregnant and when i looked down so was i. He said something to me that i couldn't understand. Then the two women grabbed me as the captain opened a hatch in the floor that lead to the outside of the submarine and into the deep sea. I struggled in their grasp but they did not budge. They threw me into the water, which was surprisingly warm, and closed the hatch. i started floating downward, the blue darkness embracing me, i could breathe but i was surrounded by water. The submarine was still above me, its golden light radiating like a star in the night sky, i looked into the round window of the submarine and looking back at me were the two women and the captain. the captain walked away from the window and started the controls of the ship. The submarine started to glide away from me and i started to swim toward it, but it just kept going without stopping. Leaving me there.... Alone.
I know it was a crazy, and very detailed dream. i have always had dreams like this, when i was younger they used to scare me but now i just accept them, and try to decipher them....lol that never works. So yeah this is going to be my goal for this weekend...work on the still image in my mind.. Wish me Luck!
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