I don't know if I was awake or asleep when I wrote this

What it is about me that inspires drunken Irish men to talk to me...

and I'm not quite sure whats wrong with me because I talk back to them... lol

It's becoming a pattern.... and I don't know how I feel about it.

I'm watching The Pee-wee Herman show on Broadway on HBO, It made me think of this documentery I watched a while ago, It was about Paul Rubens.

He had a cool childhood... I have to admit I am jealous of it.

Short story, he grew up around circus folk and that inspired him to become an actor.

I would have loved to grow up in that enviorment!

I would probably be a better juggler for it too.

Speaking of which, I was practicing diabolo the other day and I am so out of practice.

but anyway thats all for now...

OMG! Oh wait, I thought that was a ghost....

Let's see...

I'm at point in my life that everyone gets to.

It's that slow realisation that it's crunch time, Time is running out to decide what want to do when I grow up because guess what.... I am grown up.

People my age are just starting to start the chosen careers, and here I am being a total slacker.

So I think I going to start getting serious and start getting into my EMT work.

It's scary and exciting at the same time.

I feel like I need to brush up on all my skills.

So I'm going to start studying and practicing my skills.

Ok so moving on from that.... I totally got a hula hoop!

I went to Dube a week ago and got a Mini Diabolo and a hula hoop. It breaks down into 4 Peices so its super portable and the weather is getting really nice....In fact if I really wanted to I can go to the park and hula hoop. ^_^

Speaking of Diabolos...

One of my friends, one that will not be named (but her nickname sounds like danana) still has one of my Diabolos!!!

I would like it back one day missy...... hmm... hmmm.....

Well Ok I think thats really all I have to say right now..... Later!

Side note* My Grandfather's death day was yesterday, I love you Grandpa!

That's a Strange place for a Piano....

So lately I have been posting a lot more then usual.

I think that's cause I have a lot of things all jumbled in my mind right now.

Things are bugging me and I'm having a hard time sleeping at night.

I think my Insomnia is back.

It has to do with a thyroid condition I recently found out I have, but unfortunately I can't do much about it because I no longer have any health insurance. I feel myself getting a lot more personal on here then I normally get.

But whatever I need to get it out.

I think what it comes down to is that I feel like shit..

I haven't picked up my Diabolo in weeks, i haven't even juggled. They usually make me feel better when I feel like but it's like I can't bring myself to pick them up.

And the dreams....

They have been really vivid lately. It's like I cant sleep alot but when I do I remember so much, colors, places, people, the things that happen and what we say.

It's kind of insane...

This and that!!

SO I will be making an announcement in the next few days about something I have been working on. I can not wait to share it with you. My creative juices have been a flowing, Oh yeah and guess what came in the mail today!!! My Diabolos!!! I have been messing around with them all day.... Well thats all right now for an update!! I will talk to you soon!!

Delilah, Diabolo's & Dubé...Oh My!

Today's Topic of Ye Olde Blog is Diabolo's!!
As many of you know I am major fan of Diabolos, I own 3 already, and I am currently in the process of acquiring 3 more...^_^. I know I have a problem....

My Collection currently consists of:

1. Blue Millennium
(This was the first Diabolo that I ever owned,

I have had it for about 3 years. Its been run thru the mill)

2. Glow in the Dark Millennium
(My second Diabolo purchase,

not as messed up as my blue milli but I love playing with it in the dark,

it looks soooo awesome)

3. Red Circus
(I bought this beauty in Berlin & I completely adore it, I have a great spin time with it.

It took some time to get used to at first due to the weight but I'm not bad on it)

I have just ordered 2 more diabolos that should be in December 10th. They are early Birthday presents to myself. I ordered a Orange Tornado and a White Sundia. I can not wait to get them... I have started to compulsively checking the tracking info to see how close They are.

I was also considering heading to Dubé today to see if I can get myself a Arlequino,

still a tentative thought, lets see how I feel later. ^_~

I would just like to take a moment for a small rant...

ahhemm.

Their is a serious lack of Juggling stores in NY/Westchester Area.
Its like all I have is Dubé and they don't have a Giant selection of Diabolos, and the store hours are not very flexible, they are closed on weekends and they aren't open very late.

I live in Westchester which alone is about 20-40 minutes from the city depending on traffic,

I usually get out of work at 5 so lets say I do go to the city and try to make it

before they close at 6.

I have to find parking which around there is nearly impossible.

Then if by some miracle I do find parking I have about 3 minutes to get from the car to the building then get upstairs and make my purchase, and if I remember correctly I have to sign in with a door man downstairs....

Do you see the problem..

All I have to say is thank god for the Internet.

*Side Note* My birthday is in 26 more days!!

Wicked Cool Awesomeness

Busy busy week for me, I went to lunch with banana, I bought a new shelf and installed it myself thank u very much.
I also came upon new juggling balls in the most unlikely of places..The Container Store... they are filled with glitter and water, they look really cool.

Also some things I am considering getting into:
Fire breathing/Fire eating
Contact juggling
Circus EMT....I don't know if that exist
Knitting (It seems hard)

I think my mother is seriously getting worried that I am going to run away and join the circus. We were talking the other day I was telling her how I was looking to see if I needed a permit to be a street performer she turned to me and said
"you should really be focusing on your career"
(getting an EMT position)
I replied "I am" after a pause I started to laugh hysterically.
She laughed and said it wasn't funny, but it was.

Side note*
I am seriously disappointed by the lack of juggling programs/clubs in Westchester. I was on Google a whole afternoon looking for one and alas nothing. I have to trek all the way to the city... which is a good 20 to 45 minutes away depending on traffic. Maybe I should start my own juggling club...hmmmmm....

New Project for Myself / Juglito Ergo Sum

Juglito Ergo Sum means I juggle therefore I am.

It is the catch phrase for The Flying Karamazov Brothers.

I happen to absolutly love this phrase!!

So I decided to embroider a sweater that I just got with this phrase, but I couldn't stop there, nooo that would have been to easy. Well I will let my work speak for its self.

So this is my new project...I am Sooooo Excited.

This is going to be on the back of the sweater which is white...

The only thing that is probably going to be different is that I plan on including the strings that connect the Diabolo sticks. I've drawn that onto a printed copy of the design.

I would like to get some opinions. so feel free to comment on the image, What do you like about it?/What would you change?

Blogging From Berlin

Guten Tag!!

Hey Everyone,

It's me again but this time from berlin!

Missing home like a maniac, but having a blast lets see.... here are some highlights:

1. Went to Museam Island only 2 discover it isnt really an island....very disapointing....

2. Took a trip to Flying colors...and purchased a new Red Diabolo and 2 sets of sticks....(O_O)

(I love them)

3. Visited a castle it was truely beautiful.

4.Saw the berlin wall.

5. Had thai food, I know what ur thinking thai food in Germany...it was really good!

Well that the small list. Haha I will try to blog a little later on this trip.

Tomorrow were heading for Prague... I don't know if I spelt that right....Oh well. I'm taking lots of picture so prepare ur self for it.

Random moment: Some kid just threw his hat on to my head from behind me.... Like is that a German custom or something... Hey throw ur hat on the girl who is too involved typing to notice ur rudeness. I should have yelled at them but I just continuted typing... They were just being kids plus I don't know how to yell at someone in German..lol

Well I miss home and will blog soon.

The great DVD Depression...

What is all this about Blue Ray DVD's?
Is this going to make the DVD obsolete?

Maybe I just don't get it... Will I have to end up buying a whole new library of DVD's in 10 years when my DVD player breaks because they don't make DVD players anymore, only Blue Ray players!
Will I end up being one of those people who buy's everything in 2's and 3's, having a back up just in case something breaks.
This is ridicules!!
By then inflation will be so bad, just to buy a DVD will cost a small fortune, you can forget about going to the movies...just as bad.
Will I loose everything I hold dear?

Now that my moment of panic is over...

I'm sitting at work listening to Hot Chip's "Ready for the floor" float into my ears. I look like I'm working but this in fact is not true.
"Sigh" I'm such a slacker...
I am even leaving work early cause I have to pick up my sister at school, but I did come in earlier then normal. Oh yeah and also fun fact: I have my juggling class tonight. It is a double edged sword, cause I love my class but it is my last class so I am sad.
Oh yeah and I don't know if I mentioned this a few post ago but I ordered these bean bags from this woman called " The Bag Lady", she is amazing. We worked on customized bean bags for me. I like her so much I ordered 6.
I got the first order last Thursday, I was expecting to get 3 Brown and aqua suede bean bags but she gave me 4 and they came is a nice little drawstring bag.

I called her and raved about how much I love them, which I do. They just so happen to be traveling the world with me.
Do you think I should take my Diabolo.. I need to practice...
but is that a little obsessive?

BTW I am super amped about the trip!

Heres a question for ya: Why are funeral homes called funeral homes?

De De Dedede de de de dee de (Circus theme song)

I Don't know if you know this but I have been a fan of circus arts for many years now. I taught myself how to juggle and also to use the Diabolo, Secretly I have always wanted to join the circus. I know right now you must be thinking.... " what is wrong with this girl, she is training to become an EMT, she creates art, she is learning the Violin, works full time, what else could she possibly do??" ......Well, I will tell you, I want to become a circus performer. Very recently, on a Google search, I discovered a link to http://www.nycircusarts.com/ .

Ahhhh... the Big Top....

It is almost like it was meant to be, so I quickly informed some friends and family about my current endeavors and I got the usual: "yeah sure" "that's cool" responses, but then I got one from my friend Anna-banana that went like so " Cool, maybe we can do it together" In my head I had an instant party. I was like Totally Awesome! But before I can start the C.A. classes I want to finish my EMT classes. So I am thinking toward the end of august I should be able to start. I'm soooo Pumped! I'm the mean time I am going to focus on getting into shape. Working out building up my arm strength, losing weight eating right, all that good stuff.

You know what they say: Anything worth having is worth fighting for. (I think that's how it goes...)

Mimes read the news too...

Look at me I'm so meant to be in the circus, this is one of my favest outfits!