I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too... So I stayed in the darkness with you...

It's always late at night when the thoughts that run through my head cave in on me leaving me restless, tired and over thinking...
My brain can be a dangerous place sometimes.
I'm wearing two different socks... for some strange reason this makes me happy.
It doesn't take a lot to make me happy...
I enjoy the simple things in life.
I went to the Bronx zoo with my friend Nix on Monday and barely anyone was there.
It was so nice, we had the zoo to ourselves and it wasn't too cold out.
It's lazy days like this that make me grateful for growing up
in one of the most amazing cities in the world,
I love the fact that on a whim I have access to so many things.
Anyway enough of my rambles..
Here is a video that I love... Enjoy.




*Side Note* I know you feel the same...

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness....

People generally can only believe in things that are within their realm of possibilities,
for that reason they are not able to believe in things that are as natural to us as breathing,
for instance Magic.
I think our culture has misconstrued the ideal of what magic really is,
I'm not saying its conjuring flowers out of thin air or transforming people into animals.
It's science, the way people interact with each other, how experiences make you feel and turn you into the person you become this is magic.
A friend can transform a sour mood into a warm memory.
Is that not magic?
It amazes me.

I've been thinking about this a lot lately
This might not make sense to you but to me its a clear as can be.
Open up your realm of possibility so that anything is possible and any goal is attainable.

*Side note* I feel like I sound like an after school special, "Stay in school, kids!"

Questionaire: Part !

I found this Quiz online and it looked fun so here I go

1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up.

2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
A: Jerry Lewis

3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
A: to form a castle in which tiny flowers bloomed, visited by princely bees.

4) What do you think about most?
A: My future

5) What does your latest text message from someone else say?
A: I have some new orders for you...

6) Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
A: with

7) What's your strangest talent?
A: I can juggle while standing on a rola bola

8) Girls.... (finish the sentence); Boys.... (finish the sentence)
A: Girls are easily hurt; Boys are quick to walk away.

9) Ever had a poem or song written about you?
A: Yes

10) When is the last time you played the air guitar?
A: Today

11) Do you have any strange phobias?
A: of being haunted

12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
A: No

13) What's your religion?
A: spiritual

14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
A: looking at the stars and or sky.

15) Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
A: Behind

16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
A: Say Anything

17) What was the last lie you told?
A:I don't remember.

18) Do you believe in karma?
A:Yes

20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
A: My family.

21) Who is your celebrity crush?
A:Max Bemis

22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
A: Nope

23) How do you vent your anger?
A: Though art

24) Do you have a collection of anything?
A: Vintage Cameras

25) Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
A: Phone

26) Are you happy with the person you've become?
A: yes

27) What's a sound you hate; sound you love?
A: Slurping, Max bemis' voice

28) What's your biggest "what if"?
A: What if I just joined the circus

29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
A: yes and yes

30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.
A: window, my sister

31) Smell the air. What do you smell?
A: nothing

32) What's the worst place you have ever been to?
A: Roanoke Radpids

33) Choose East Coast or West Coast?
A: East

34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?
A: Max Bemis

35) To you, what is the meaning of life?
A: To be happy

36) Define Art.
A: Self expression

37) Do you believe in luck?
A: Yes

38) What's the weather like right now?
A: Cold

40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
A: yes and no

41) What was the last book you read?
A: Kiss of the Highlander

42) Do you like the smell of gasoline?
A: yes

43) Do you have any nicknames?
A: Dee

44) What was the last movie you saw?
A: The Geisha Boy

45) What's the worst injury you've ever had?
A: Broken ankle in 2 places

46) Have you ever caught a butterfly?
A: nope

47) Do you have any obsessions right now?
A: Circus

49) Ever had a rumor spread about you?
A: no

50) Do you believe in magic?
A: Hell yes

This type of life didn't come with instructions

I'm starting the year off like a lion, I am so amped for the new year its ridiculous. I have a list of goals for the year that I am going to accomplish. I have dubbed it Project 2012. I want to put it down on paper, so to speak, so (in no particular order) here it is!!

Project 2012

1. Finish my book/s
(I have developed a horrible pattern of giving up on things and never finishing them, It ends this year, I want to finish at least one of the books I have started.)

2. Enroll in school
(I want to become a Art Therapist, I don't want to be one of those people that say that they are going back to school and end up never going back)

3. Get to a healthy weight and tone up.
(I know such a typical resolution/ new year type of goal but I have wanted to do this for a long time, not only to lose weight but to manage my Graves as well. I think part of me is scared to lose weight, I have used my weight as an excuse not to do things and even as a mask to keep attention away from myself. That's not to say that I'm looking for attention because the opposite is true, I'm not a big fan of the spotlight)

4. Get a new job.
(I need something more substantial then my current work situation)

5. Go on a trip/vacation.
(Long over do)

6. Learn Spanish and/or French to the point where I can hold conversations.
(This also goes back to finishing things that I start, I have made some half hearted attempts at both languages and I still can't speak them, I might take a class to help keep myself focused.)

7. Move out of my parents house.
(This is a big one, I don't want to be so dependent on them anymore it might take to the end of the year to achieve this goal but I think once I cut the ties that bind I will be better for it.)

8. Take a self defense or boxing class.
(This will come after I get in better shape and improve my stamina, I want to be able to defend myself, I have wanted to take a Krav Maga class for a while now why not this year.)

That is the goal list for Project 2012. I plan on achieving each of these goals before the new year, I can't wait!!