The sun is shining somewhere

Happy Valentines Day!
In honor of this day I have come up w ith 2 song playlist for you to check out.
For those of you who are attached, grab the one you love and have a micro dance party.

1. I want you-- Fefe Dobson
2. Crush'd-- Say Anything (of course)
3. Must have dones something right-- Relient K
4. Green eyes-- I am the Avalanche

5. She likes me for me-- Collective Soul
6.Valentine-- Shades Apart

For those of you who are single, grab your Ice cream of choice and grab these songs:

1. No Surprise-- Theory of a Deadman
2. Rolling in the Deep-- Adele
3. Made Of Stone-- Envy on the Coast
4. Don't Speak Liar-- We the Kings

5. Die Alone-- Ingrid Michaelson
6. My second restraining order--I am the Avalanche

and I had a mini photo shoot here are the pic's:

*Side note* Have you seen the key to my Heart? If you do let me know...

Just sing the saddest song for me, revive me

I don't know why but for some reason, I have felt angsty all day...
And for the most part the day was uneventful...
I have felt restless all day, and of course I had absolutely nowhere to be.
The weather was rainy (Which is my favorite)
But I just wanted to be around another human who I like, I didn't even need to talk.
And I found myself with nowhere to really turn.
In my attempt to find another I called my friend and basically invited myself over
(with permission)
I walked in on tension and then felt bad for intruding...
So I excused myself and drove around for about an hour.
I then called another friend, who I discovered, was having some of her own drama.
I felt crazy alone.
(not even a Peppermint hot Coco could mend my mood)
I eventually landed in Barnes and Noble, read a book and then came home to write this.
Now I am currently listening to Say Anything's "I used to have a heart."
There is a part in the song that stuck out to me and I feel like it's really fitting for how I feel at the moment:

All I want to do is be mended by you
I don't want to be confused, I just want to find you
All I want to kill is that which keeps me ill
Underwhelmed and unfulfilled

That's me in a nutshell today.
That expresses me more then all the words I could type here.
I feel rejected and let down by life today...
I think I'm being a tad dramatic...
I'm going to stop writing now...

Just one more birthday....

Let me guide you through the story of a boy and his curse

Tiny diamond in his stroller with his first step chasing the hearse

Sippin' at a cup that's half way filled

But looking forward to the day he pays that drinking bill

There's no peace, there's no quiet on this earth

He confided, nestled tightly in that womb beneath the dirt

Hurt no more and when he turned 24

He wrote a note to nail to God's front door that said

I want death

Death for my birthday

I want death

Death in the worst way

I want death

Death for my birthday

Don't get me wrong cause..

I love life

But life has a boyfriend

Bless my soul

I'm out to destroy them

I want death

Death for my birthday

For my birthday

From the high paying job and the love of his life

He rode a roller coaster ride of lust on their wedding night

They made a baby in unmentionable ways

He was ungrateful as a man could be on that blessed day

And underneath he thought this is all a phase

Just a blip in the existence of a structure vast and great

Pray each night to his cross of a charm

For the one thing he couldn't afford just to buy the farm

I want death

Death for my birthday

I want death

Death in the worst way

I want death

Death for my birthday

Don't get me wrong cause..

I love life

But life has a boyfriend

Bless my soul

I'm out to destroy them

I want death

Death for my birthday

For my birthday

I'll never lose another friend again

Or watch them start a war that's fought for ideals that are dead

I'll never have an argument again

Because my dust

will be your salt

My blood will hydrate you off

My heart will be your meal

And I won't ride the cycle of the way it kills to think and feel

No more, no

I want death

Death for my birthday

I want death

Death in the worst way

I want death

Death for my birthday

Don't get me wrong cause..

I love life

But life has a boyfriend

Bless my soul

I'm out to destroy them

I want death

Death for my birthday

For my birthday

One sweet day his heart ceased to beat

He fell so fast beneath all our feet

Through bugs and snakes

Last words he had to say were

Help me claw my way to the surface

Oh sweet lord you know I deserve this

Just one more, just one more birthday

You push me over and I crack...

Say Anything...

I think I can officially say that they are my favorite band.

I have been to so many of their shows that I have lost track.

I was able to record some of their show when I saw them last week, unfortunately the sound is quite craptastic.. I was right under the speakers. but look at how close I was... eep!

So first a message from Max (that sounds good)

*Sigh* aren't they amazing....

ok ok i'm done being a dork... for today at least...

For a minute there I lost myself.... I lost myself....

So I'm kinda depressed lately...

I just don't want to talk to anyone, I feel myself slowly fold into myself.

It's like when something works out, something shitty happens

I got my Say Anything tickets in the mail and

then my car gets a flat at night next to a cemetery.

I find out that My Chemical Romance is going to be in New York in December

(Live Nation contacted me with the presale)

and I was and am pretty excited.

The tickets are like $50, then I get a ticket for running a red light in the mail.

There goes $50...

I know that was my fault but it's just like can't I catch a break.

I just... gahh... I want to dig a hole stick my head in it and pretend I don't exist.

Maybe I'll just do that.

I think I hate myself right now...

I hate where I'm at...

I am self sabotaging....

I feel like crap...

Things are becoming more apparent to me...

and they are hard things to face...

I am trying to make myself happy but failing miserably...

I don't know what to do anymore...

I just want to lay in bed and cry....

I want to cry until my eyes are dry and they hurt.

I feel like a failure at life and I don't know how to make it better..

I'm lost....

My starry eyes were sacrificed....

So I am kinda pissed.....

I haven't gotten my Say Anything tickets in the mail yet

and

I ordered them in like July or something...

The show is November 9th...

I should have had my tickets way before now...

I find my self scouring the mail like a crazy person

*Enter Scenario*
The Dog goes crazy, like most dogs , Luna despises the Mailman.

"Luna calm down!" I say as I shake my head.

I know that it is pointless to tell her because she won't.

I look outside to see the mailman walking away from the house.

I think to myself...

"Maybe it's here today... just maybe..."
I rip the mail out of the box and the madness begins

I scan all the names on all the envelopes pausing ever so slightly when I come to the ones with my grandmothers name

(her name is Delia and as you know mine is Delilah)

all of this takes place in a matter or mere seconds.

I go through the finally letter and the disappointment creeps in.

I think "Maybe I overlooked it"

So I begin again only slightly slower, and I pause at my grandmothers name again..

Frustration now takes the place of disappointment.

I throw the mail down on the coffee table and

I think "Maybe tomorrow..."

*End*

This has been going on for a few weeks....

Where the hell is my Tix!!!!

I don't think i ask for a whole lot... I just want my Ticket....

*Side note* Yes i am aware that i have seen Say anything like a million times but evertime is better then the last...Sigh.....

My hands are only extensions

Having some Rainy day/Rainbow fun today,

didn't this shot come out so cool!

So Bamboozle was Great and I totally got burnt, but it was so worth it.

Say Anything was FanFreakingTastic!

I love them so much.. sigh...

I wan to see then again and again. It's ridiculous.

Ok so on some Crafty like news,

I am planing on entering a craft fair on City Island more to come about that soon I'm working toward that right now.

I have to admit I am kind nervous about that, I know I have said this before so to quote myself "It's like slapping your heart down on a table and saying do your worst".

It's just plain scary...

Well thats all thats been going on right now.

Lates everyone!

So I know I you guys must be sick of me going on and on about Say Anything,

and I can not promise that this will be the last Say Anything post

but I will try and tone it down.

^_^

So I felt compelled to post this video that I found of Max Bemis from Say Anything preforming

an acoustic version of "Crushed" from their new album.

Enjoy!

A series of Statements.. some of a Question-like nature:

So I haven't gone skating in a few weeks and that kinda bums me out.

Why do the snow plow people feel the necessity to ruin my life?

Christmas is kind of overwhelming me... I am so behind...

Do you think Santa has to shovel snow?

Breakfast was really good this morning

This snow storm killed my plans last night...so Bummy.

I want to go to target today. I have some things I need to return.

If I want to go to Target I have to shovel out my car

I don't really want to shovel out my car...

I wish my car had a feature that melted snow off of it. That would be cool

Ughh...

Side note* I really like snow I just wish my car is a truck in this kind of weather..

Update: I posted pictures from the November Say Anything Concert on my Flickr. Check it out

www.Flickr.com/fairyflames4

Maybe, the world'll look like this forever

So November 3rd I had the pleasure of seeing Say Anything in concert..Again.

lol and as always they were Amazing!!

I got to Irving Plaza at like 1:30ish and I was the second person on the line.
Yay!
So I totally knew I was going to get a sweet spot in the front.. which I did!
So their were 2 opening bands and 2 main bands, the opening bands were pretty good my favorite was The Miniature Tigers. They were so good, surprising for an opening band. I love going to shows there is something to be said about the energy that is at a rock so, you feel so alive, like anything is possible!

But anyway I went to see The Flying Karamazov Brothers on the 7th and that show was sooo funny, I went with my lovely aunt and we both had a really good time.
It was a surprise when I saw my juggling teacher preforming, because I thought that he was no longer preforming with the show but it turns out I was wrong. ^_^

Speaking of juggling where is my poi, I can't find them anywhere.
I have to practice...

Today I painted my Very ugly Ice Skates and now they are even uglier, haha Just kidding
They are Beautiful now.

A work of moving art if you will.

I can't wait to show them off at the rink tomorrow morning.

For now I will have to just show them off here and all 3 of my readers can show the world

lol, I make myself giggle...

Here are the skates:

This is a picture of the inside of the skate,

aka the part of the skate that is next to the other skate.

So no one will really see this, its more for me. ^_^

This is the side of the skate that is visible to anyone who cares to look.

*Side note* I really don't have a side note today.

Stoked!!

I have a few things I want to touch base on!
First I am really excited for Say Anythings new album coming out soon and I recently purchased Tickets to see them in November.

Speaking of November, that seems to be a pretty busy month I also have Tickets to see The Flying Karamazov Brothers in Tarrytown. Yay!

I love going to Concerts and shows of my fancy, I always have.

Let me see If I can describe the feeling.

It's like when you were young and there was a night that was so fantastic when you woke up the next morning it didn't feel real, like it was a crazy vivid dream.

It's Magical thinking about it again and thinking to yourself... That really happened to me.

Wow...... I totally went into to much detail.

I'm going to be heading into V.A. in a few hours were leaving at 6 in the am, I almost don't think its worth going too sleep considering the fact that it is almost 3.

I kinda wish that the gym opened at 5am today but alas it opens at 7 or 8, I really don't know what the weekend hours are,

I usually go at obscene hours when I am having a hard time sleeping.

But whatever I think I have said what I wanted to, Night Everyone (all two of you)

Side Note* I want to see the new Hayao Miyazaki film Ponyo and learn Poi spinning!!!

So Get This!!

It was floating around that Max Bemis was going to start writing personalized songs for his fans but today i stumbled upon the website that hes taking the comissions!!! What!!! It is no secret that i love max bemis and of couse i am already dreaming up all the ideas i want to have written in my song.

But as i was writing i realized i was essentally writing my own song lol. Take a sneak peak.

Song:

When people see me they don't see who I really am. They see the eccentric artist that has nothing better to do with herself.

I am walked all over and the kicked for good measure. I smile and take it but inside I am tired of faking, your broken analogies make my head spin, there is beauty in my breakdown but it happens from within,

I will never forget the way you taunted me only to end up wanting to be me. so I laugh just loud enough to make you jealous and you sit there pretending ur life was something else.

This is a toast for the Girl you can't see

but I want you to know that girl is me.

So thats what i have come up with so far... what do you think?

Please....Do tell...

Welcome to another exciting moment of Delilah's Life...

On this episode we discuss the social gatherings amongst citizen of the same musical genre,
as well as the most recent addition of ceramic masterpieces to Delilah's Gallery.
Enjoy.....

Warped Tour was Amazing!!
My friend Nix & I went together and I believe I spent over $100, their were some amazing non-profits their that i had to take Part in such as:

1. To Write Love on Her Arms (One of my favorite Non-Profits)
2. Peta ( although i love meat..sry animals)
3. 11:11 Am (started with Andrew from Jack's Mannequin)
4. Unite the United
5. Music saves Lives

You know people assume that people that are interested in rock are all about drugs and are essentially bad people, when in fact this is a misconception.

Don't get me wrong though,
there are people who are led down a misguided path and end up destroying their lives as an outcome.
The people that inspire me most are the ones that see they have a problem and overcome it.
Gerard way from My Chemical romance, Travis from Gym Class Heroes and Max Bemis from Say Anything. They are truly inspiring.

Also i wanted to share with you some ceramics i painted, Forgive the horrible lighting of the photos.

So now For the Pictures!!!

Nix and I are shoe-tastic! Nix being Emo
Me trying to look cool in massive amounts of heat....
5 minutes later....
Wow, your at a Warped Tour in a Cast!! ur so hardcore!!
Oh Max....how i adore thee...
The guys working hard for the fans!
It's Katy Perry!

Amazing set by Automatic Love Letter!!

Shwayze...

A star ornament I painted... the front
The back....hehe Random Picture I took while i was driving...

The Beat goes on..... and on....

I am super excited, This weekend is Warped Tour!!!
I have been waiting months for this!
I was in my car the other day listening to Z100 and I heard them say they were giving away tickets to warped tour.

I was like "WHAT!?!" So now I am thoroughly pissed off, Now I have to be around all of these little poser punks that a year ago they were listening to Usher and R-Kelly, now rock is the new cool thing to listen to.

Listen be true to yourself and don't try to be something your not just cause its cool.

That's one thing I could never stand, for years when I was younger I was teased because I was different, but when the different became cool every one pretended they liked it before everyone else. If you enjoy something its that simple, you enjoy it.

Ill never forget what one of my cousins said to me once:

My family and I were in the car on our way home from shopping, we were passing a art supplies store that I have previously passes, I had to be around 12 at the time. I turn to my mother and say "Hey mom one day I want to go there" My cousin turns and says "That store is for a real artist, your not a real artist".

I have always been one to try new things (that should be evident) but don't knock me for it. If you want to do something but are afraid of what other people might think.

Screw em, Do it.

What do you have to lose? Real friends support you, they don't look down on you.
That when you know you have great friends. If I were turn to my friends and say I want to go parasailing, they would most likely say "So when are we going". I have Amazing friends. In that way I am so so lucky.

*Side Note: I am now an amazing Artist! ^_^

I Love Music....Lyrics

I started thinking about some songs I love and I wanted to share some of my favorite lines from those songs:

Sorrow drips into your heart through a pin hole,

just like a faucet that leaks and there is comfort in the sound.

~Death Cab for Cutie

The road outside my house, Is paved with good intentions.

Hired a construction crew, 'Cause it's hell on the engine.

~Fall Out Boy

You did me wrong, I grinned and played along

Those days are gone, does this confession turn you on?

~Say Anything

When you go, Don't ever think, I'll make you try to stay

And maybe when you get back, I'll be off to find another way.

~My Chemical Romance

Say you want to let me go and that's gonna have to end

You can Go and getta new boyfriend But you'll never getta better boyfriend
Love just aint our way but, You know I don't pretend Imma go and getta new girlfriend

Imma get myself a better girlfriend

~Tyga

How I wish, how I wish you were here.

We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year

~Pink Floyd

I'd walk through hell for you.
Let it burn right through my shoes,
These soles are useless without you.
Through hell for you let the torturing ensue,
My soul is useless without you.

~Say Anything

Your heart is a river that flows from your chest through every organ,

your brain is the dam and I am the fish that cant reach the cord.

~Death Cab for Cutie

So one last touch and then you'll go

and we'll pretend that it ment something so much more.

But it was vile, and it was cheap

and you are beautiful but you dont mean a thing to me.

~Death Cab for Cutie

I know that you want me to want you I want to

But I can't forgive you

So when this is over don't blow your composure baby

I can't forget you

~Mayday Parade

Thats just the few song lyrics i could remember, I think all of them are strong in their own way. If you couldnt tell...I love Death Cab for Cutie.^_^

A walk through hell.....

So i have been working on my dream piece this weekend, which was tough because Saturday March 29th, i was at a Say Anything concert (Insert fan scream here). i was on line @ the nokia theater from 2:30pm till 6pm when the doors opened, They show was Amazing!!! They even sang a old song called " A walk through Hell" One of the most inspiring songs ever written. Max Bemis was hot as hell as always....emo tear.....too bad he has a GF.
Anyways..... I think I'm going to do a series of paintings based off that song, ill include the lyrics at the end of the blog so you can see what I'm talking about. So yeah i don't know how this turned into a post about the concert but somehow it did....... so I'm still working on my dream painting, i have redone it twice and now its turned into this kind of abstract version of my dream, but that's ok. I'm working on an art board because i cant stand canvas sometimes and I'm also using acrylic paints and that reminds me that i need to swing by Michael's to pick up some more paint.....i ran out of dark blue.......I also need to study.....Ugh...how can life suck and be awesome at the same time!

A walk through hell lyrics: Enjoy!

And if I could swim, I'd swim out to you in the ocean,
Swim out to where you were floating in the dark.
And if I was blessed, I'd walk on the water you're breathing,
To lend you some air for that heaving, sunken chest.
'Cause they chose you as the model for their empty little dreams,
With your new head and your legs spread like a filthy magazine.
And they hunt you, and they gut you, and you give in.
And if I was brave, I'd climb up to you on the mountain,
They led you to drink from their fountain spouting lies.
And I'd slay the horrible beast they commissioned
To steer me away from my mission to your eyes.
and I'd stand there, like a soldier, with my foot upon his chest,
With my grin spread, and my arms out, in my bloodstained Sunday's best,
And you'd hold me; I'd remind you who you are under their shell.
I'd walk through hell for you, let it burn right through my shoes
These soles are useless without you
Through hell for you, let the torturing ensue;
My soul is useless without you...
And if they send a whirlwind, I'd hug it like a harmless little tree.
Or an earthquake, I'd calm it, and I'd bring you back to me.
And I'd hold you in my weak arms like a first born.
I'd walk through hell for you, let it burn right through my shoes,
These soles are useless without you
Through hell for you, let the torturing ensue;
My soul is useless without you...Through hell for you
Through hell for you
Without you, without you...Through hell for you.
Without you...Through hell for you
Now I've walked through hell for you.
What's an adventurer to do, But rest these feet at home with you?