Deep in the thick of it...

This past Sunday,

I took a little trip to the Brooklyn Flea Market with My sister and my friend Mira. On the way there we passed this little indoor artist market.
It was pretty rad, I saw this guy who had on a outfit that I would want to grace my own closet, sometimes I wish I was bolder with my fashion choices.After walking around the artist market and exploring the goods at the flea, we took a walk in the small park right next to the flea and hung out by the water where I proceeded to harass my Mira and Angelia with my camera.Then we headed over to Van Leeuwen's for some Ice cream I tried the Earl Gray, and it was Amazing!
All in all a really great day, it was the kind of simple day that you look back on and remember it fondly, even thought we did nothing Extraordinary it was a great day.
I hope that your weekends are as Awesome as mine!!

Sometimes Goodbye is a Second Chance...

Sorry Blog.... I have been ignoring you...
Anyway for a few moments in time I was thinking about just packing a bag and driving away. Away from everything I know and just start new somewhere.
The thought was really appealing.
It kind of startled me how willing I was to grab some things and leave.
It wasn't scary and I wasn't worried about what would happen to me
because I feel like not matter what I would be okay.
Do people still do this... I'm sure they are the brave ones.
People that have no ties to the place they reside.
I have too many ties here.

So I just finished Neil Gaiman's "Anansi Boys" It was really good, every time I read a new Gaimen book, my love for him grows just that much more.
Here is an interview with him and Craig Ferguson.

I want to share my love with you.....

A note on the circus:

I want to be apart of the making of magic,
I want to be around the weavers of fantasy, the spinners of dreams and the creators of the illusion. I want to breathe in the air that has tiny invisible sparkles of light that cause you to see everything with a childlike sense of wonder.

I want to feed off the happiness of the crowd and let it engulf me in a storm of silver glitter and golden light, stealing me away to a place that knows no sadness only joy and a lightness of the soul that never lets me touch the ground.

I crave the nomadic lifestyle, nothing static, my world in a constant state of flux.
New faces attached to a different town that looks like a place I once knew in another life.

I want the smell of cotton candy and fresh popcorn to fill my nostrils every morning upon my waking and I want the sound of children's laughter to drown out the doubts that haunt me at night. I want the vibrations of the crowd's cheers to crawl inside my skin and cause it to hum and glow with light.
But what I want more then anything is to become the illusion,
not just the maker or the designer,
when you look at me I want you to have to shield your eyes
because the light that I am emitting is too much for your eyes to handle.
I want to soar up high in a cloud of shear white silk and rhinestones, not unlike a comet making a trail in the night sky, your eyes glued to the magic unfolding before you.

This is the place that I visit in the small corner of my mind.
So if you see a girl with brown hair and brown eyes that are staring off into space and you wonder where her mind has taken her.
That girl is me and that girl is also circus performer dancing among the stars.

Lovely Words

I found this quote from Neil Gaiman that I love, enjoy:

"There are a hundred things she has tried to chase away the things she won't remember and that she can't even let herself think about because that's when the birds scream and the worms crawl and somewhere in her mind it's always raining a slow and endless drizzle.

You will hear that she has left the country, that there was a gift she wanted you to have, but it is lost before it reaches you. Late one night the telephone will sign, and a voice that might be hers will say something that you cannot interpret before the connection crackles and is broken.

Several years later, from a taxi, you will see someone in a doorway who looks like her, but she will be gone by the time you persuade the driver to stop. You will never see her again.

Whenever it rains you will think of her. "
— Neil Gaiman

A moviescript ending...

So lately I have been taking part of Epix free movie screenings in Brooklyn every
Wednesday night. I really dig it. It's like a movie and a picnic. ^_^
They have vendors there if you want to buy food and there is usually some sort of sponsor that is handing out free stuff to the people who attend.
Last week it was vitamin water and southwest airlines.

Every week they show a different movie last week was
"Ferris Buellers day off" and this week it's "Clueless"
They have a good selection of movies, not only in Brooklyn but all over NYC.

If you would like to check it out here is a link:
Epix Movie Screening

It's something I look forward to every week.
Defiantly something I suggest doing!

Who truly stuck the knife in first...

I wasn't a huge Amy Winehouse fan but she was an Amazing singer.
I found this cover of "You know that I'm no good.."
(which is my favorite song of her's) that does the song justice.
RIP Amy
you wasted your talent,
which is the real tragedy.

I'm Sh sh Shaking....

So something really weird has started happening to me last week.
I was in bed just on the cusp of sleep, when all of a sudden my bed started shaking.
I got up and looked around and I realized that it wasn't just the bed that was shaking
It was the whole house...

Now If I could just take a moment and describe the shaking it was like I ate a cell phone and It was on vibrate mode.

At this point in time: 3 things Popped into my head...

1. This is a dream/night terror that has leaked into reality.
2. My room is haunted
and
3. The house is going to explode.


I got out of bed and the floor was shaking, I put my hand on the wall, it too was shaking.
I went to my mothers room and woke her up and asked "Do you feel the house shaking?"
She looked at me with sleep and confusion glazing her eyes.
"What?... No..."
"Do you?"

Ok, so now I'm thinking, Ive finally lost it, It was bound to happen at sometime or another.
Like a mad person tying to find proof of sanity by convincing another person that there is in fact a pink elephant in the room, I asked again "Are you sure you don't feel the house shaking?"

My mother got up from her bed and walked over to me
"You really don't feel the floor shaking?"I said
"No honey I don't feel anything"
"I guess it's me.. Feel me am I shaking?"
She put her hands on my arms and was quiet for a few seconds
"Nope, I don't feel anything"

I then explained to her what had happened while I was asleep, she dismissed it as a dream/night terror scenario, and that was that..
Until a day later when I was sitting in bed with my sister and I started vibrating again, this time I wasn't sleeping and very much awake.
For me that means its time to Google.

So I typed in Vibrating while asleep, Shaking Graves disease, thyroid vibrating and so on and so forth.
It turns out that other people are experiencing what I am experiencing ...

If your interested here is a link to one of the forums I was reading...
Sleep Disorders

Its a lot of mixed opinions some people say its because I have an autoimmune disease others say I am traveling outside of my body.
Whatever.
All I know is that it is incredibly unsettling.
more then likely it is a symptom of my graves disease...
Just something new I have to deal with, I still in the process of taking test to see how serious my graves is, I just have to wait and see....

The day that I die?

So I took this quiz online called
"Death Meter"
and they ask you a bunch of questions about your lifestyle and based on that Data
they can tell you the day that you are going to Die.
Being the Curious person that I am I took the Quiz.
And my results were......

June 3rd 2071
Time remaining: 21884 days
So I will be 84 years, 5 months, 3 days old.

I wonder if this has any truth to it, I doubt it.
This test is purely based on your lifestyle choices not on accidents.
You know you can be hit by a car tomorrow or a piano can fall on your head.
so yeah just thought this was interesting....