Thought I was lost but I was stranded...

Sometimes at night when everyone is asleep but me,

I feel the need to bake something

The whole process is very soothing to me.

Gathering all the ingredients and then mixing it all in a bowl,

it's probably the only time my mind settles down,

I feel like I can breathe normally when I bake or cook.

I was thinking about people, I believe that people are generally good.

That the things and people that they encounter is what shapes them, and how they learn to handle pain and their life is what sets them apart.

Think about it a "Bad Child" is usually a child that is acting out.

They want attention and they will do any means to get it no matter how they hurt themselves or others. They are literally starving attention not unlike a dry sponge.

So why do we think in terms of Good people and bad people?

I mean If someone had just taken that "Bad Child" aside and gave him just a smidgen of attention. Who knows what kind of change that would have made in his life.

Hitler was a artist, he applied 7 times to art school and he got denied every time.

Hitler became...well, Hitler.

What if he would have gotten into art school?

We will never know but there will always be a "What if" factor.

I believe in humanity. I believe in kindness.

but I'm not naive.

I realize that not everyone can be trusted.

and that I think is a shame.

*Side note* Just saw "Eat, Pray, Love. and it was a great movie.

And our dreams will break the boundaries of our fears

Time, such a little word but it is also big.

We are all bound by it and I don't think a single person can say different.

(unless your a Vampire)

It's amazing how we all feel like time passes so quickly and at moments not at all.

For me right now, it feels like I'm floating in Jello. ^_^

but for someone else it feels like they have been put in the VCR to fast forward

There are even people that want to be re winded.

Me personally I just want to look back on my life and see if I was happy.

If I was then I did something right.

and I realize that you can't be happy all the time.

My mom thinks I'm sitting in a daze with dreams that are ridiculous, and to a point she's right.

But I am all too aware of the fact that

I have started to grow roots in the spot that I am standing in.

lol if I raise my arms I resemble a tree.

People tend to put such a emphasis's on time when they should really be putting emphasis's on Their quality of life, healthy relationships with the people in their life,

living life to the fullest and making sure they squeeze every drop of Fun/Sadness/Excitement/Sorrow/Happiness out of it.

Yeah I know you're thinking "how did Sorrow and Sadness sneak in there?"

It's important to feel those to,

I don't cry a whole lot, but when I do I cry as if I have have to get every drop of water out of me. lol.

So right now I am enjoying my Jello-y prison and I know that if a few weeks time I'm going to have to grab an spoon and dig myself out. ^_^

So What it all boils down to STOP!! worrying about the Future and more about the Now.

No one can tell you whats going to happen in the future and life likes to throw you curve balls.

So enjoy the present.

What's that saying.... The past is history, the future's mystery, the present is a gift....

So go ahead and unwrap it already!!

*Side note* Yes, I wrote this for you. ^_~

Life should be that simple...I wish it were just so simple

At a Flea market in Tarrytown NY, I found a old Polaroid Colorack Camera..
that looks alot like the one below.

So I took it for a spin last week while I was in Cape May, NJ, Vacaing with Fam. After some research I found the film for it and I was ready. I really didn't know what to expect at first because I had never used a camera like this.

At first pack of film (which is 10 exp, like most Polaroid film) Well.. it reeally didn't turn out so well... they were out of focus and i didn't hold the shutter down long enough... So yeah. by the Second roll I had gotten the hang of it and I wanted to share some of the pic's I took with it.
So here we go:

Aren't the cool!! Needless to say..... but going to be said anyway... I love this Camera!!!!

I can't wait to get more film so I can take more pic's!!

You can judge all the world on the sparkle that you think it lacks

Ok so I lost my head for a while but I am totally cool.

My knee is like 10x better!

Yay for healing!

So I am watching this crazy show on Animal Planet called Monster inside of me.

What genius decided to create this show, it's all about parasites that people have contracted.

It skeeves me out and give me the Hebe jibes

(Did I spell that right, maybe someone from the 1950's can tell me!)

So yeah I have been working on a lot of paintings (pic's to come soon)

This is really just a quick update on what has been going on, and it seems that I haven't really said much of anything.

Oh I will be going away this weekend I am heading out to Cape May, New Jersey.

Ewww...Jersey.... Lol

^_^

Ok Bye...

*Side note* I need more bottle caps....

We are just breakable, breakable, breakable girls...

I'm really upset right now, I'm just thinking about my knee and googling everything I can possibly find on ACL injury's. I know I am being obsessive, but I just want to get better.

I'm worried that my knee will never be the same.

All the things I read online are putting into my head that my ACL is torn and If its torn bad enough I could need surgery. I am so over this shit.

I don't want to have surgery nor can I afford it. I am in this horrible place mentally. All I do is think about my knee.

I went to the emergency room in South Dakota, and this is probably the New Yorker in me, but I feel like the doctor kind of dismissed me to quickly.

So I feel like he didn't carefully look over the xrays.

He said it was just a bad sprain.

He wanted me to walk on it right away and I was in such pain that I really wasn't capable.

He gave me a ace bandage and a boot out of the hospital.

Granted my knee does feel a lot better then when I was in SD,

but what if it's healing wrong or It really is torn.

I still can't fully extend my leg and that worries the shit out of me.

But I have no Insurance , so how am I supposed to know how it's progressing.

If you know me then you know my mind runs a thousand miles a minute.

So imagine how I'm feeling right now..

So I am in Crazy lady panic mode... but you wouldn't know it by looking at me.

*Side note* What if I never walk normally again.....

The people in my life have to keep me grounded...

Or else I would float away....
It's true...

I can be so ridiculous sometimes...
and I'm starting to realize that and that scares me...

I have been away for the past few weeks and just a few days into my trip,
I fell and sprained my knee very badly.
It was a total bummer and it made my trip kinda suck a little bit.
I'm still not fully recovered..
and I have just learned that I incapable of sitting still...
It's a problem when I'm trying to heal...
it's taking sooo long...
at this point I'm trying to heal my self using sheer willpower...It's not working....

So yeah... thats whats really been going on.

so heres a list of things I wish I could do right this moment...
1. Swim
2. Jump on a trampoline
3. Run
4. Go to the city
5. Hang out in Brooklyn w/ my Great Grandma

Here's a list of things I have to do
1. Clean my room
2. Find a job
3. Make word bubble chalk boards
4. Get my oil changed
5. Color my hair back to normal

*Side Note* I love Painting my Nails!!

I'm in love and given away....

Right now I am away from home and I have been for a few days.
I am currently in South Dakota and on my way to Custer state park.
So far the trip has been amazing!
We started in Deadwood and we took a road trip to Devils tower, where close encounters of the third kind was filmed, and we did a mile hike around the whole tower.
We also went into an old gold mine.
It was a fantastic experience!
I am kinda shocked that I am having such a good time.
To be honest I thought it would be kind of boring, but happily I have been proved wrong!
The first day I was a bit nausaus, because we are so high up compared to NY.
I was told this is becasue I was am to being at sea level.
I am going to be traveling for another week or so,
and I have a ton more places that I am going to be visiting.
Check my Flickr for picture updates!
www. Flickr.com/Fairyflames4
I have already posted some pics of my trip thus far!
Well I will talk to you guys soon!
*Side note* I miss NY a little...

She can still here that Rebel Yell just as loud as it was in 1983.

Been Really busy Creating things for the craft show on City Island. I am really excited, but the adverse effect of that is that I have been neglecting my blog and I feel bad about that, so here is a real life story...

So I was at the gas station the other morning,

I was busy pumping my gas when I looked up and noticed this guy staring at me, I quickly looked away and finished pumping my gas.

I walked to the drivers side of the car and I hear someone shout "Hey" behind me.

I ignore it and hear it again.

I looked and it was that same guy that was staring at me, and he says

"It's been a long time, how are you?"

"Umm.. I don't know you"

" yeah, your Lisa, right"

"Umm, no"

" oh sorry"

"It's cool, Bye"

It had to be on of the most bizarre verbal exchanges I have ever had with another human being

that's not to say I have had many exchanges with non human beings...or have I....

so yeah that's my story... ttyl

*Side note* I am going to be going away, so you might not hear from me for a while but I promise to be more vigilant.