Now my life is one big make it, or break it.

So far April has been a whirlwind for me...

I got my Song shop song from a mister Max Bemis.

It is Amazing. It's almost like he knows me

Then I tried my hand at making Macrons (a french pastry) and they came out sooo yummy

After that I was diagnosed with Grave's Disease.

It sounds scarier then it actually is.

Graves’ disease is an autoimmune disease that affects the thyroid.

With Graves’ disease, the immune system makes antibodies that act like TSH, causing the thyroid to make more thyroid hormone than your body needs.

This is called an overactive thyroid or hyperthyroidism.

An overactive thyroid causes every function of the body to speed up, such as heart rate and the rate your body turns food into energy.

Graves’ disease is one cause of overactive thyroid.

It is closely related to Hashimoto’s disease, another autoimmune disease affecting the thyroid.

Basically my body is attacking my thyroid and my thyroid is freaking out.

I think my case is extreme because I don't exhibit all of the symptoms.

So i'm not really worried about it and it's not like there is a whole lot I can do about it right now

So yeah....

April...

yeah...

So um....

Lol ok I think that's all for right now.

I wanted to post some pics of my Macrons but.. I don't feel like getting up to get my camera...

So it will have to wait for another post.

^_^

*Side note* The blanket octopus is beautiful....

Thought I was lost but I was stranded...

Sometimes at night when everyone is asleep but me,

I feel the need to bake something

The whole process is very soothing to me.

Gathering all the ingredients and then mixing it all in a bowl,

it's probably the only time my mind settles down,

I feel like I can breathe normally when I bake or cook.

I was thinking about people, I believe that people are generally good.

That the things and people that they encounter is what shapes them, and how they learn to handle pain and their life is what sets them apart.

Think about it a "Bad Child" is usually a child that is acting out.

They want attention and they will do any means to get it no matter how they hurt themselves or others. They are literally starving attention not unlike a dry sponge.

So why do we think in terms of Good people and bad people?

I mean If someone had just taken that "Bad Child" aside and gave him just a smidgen of attention. Who knows what kind of change that would have made in his life.

Hitler was a artist, he applied 7 times to art school and he got denied every time.

Hitler became...well, Hitler.

What if he would have gotten into art school?

We will never know but there will always be a "What if" factor.

I believe in humanity. I believe in kindness.

but I'm not naive.

I realize that not everyone can be trusted.

and that I think is a shame.

*Side note* Just saw "Eat, Pray, Love. and it was a great movie.

I made Bread!!! AHHHHHHH!

I am like sooo Amped!!!

I totally made my first loaf of bread.

I am so proud!

(Drum roll) and here it is!!