My mind is open wide, Now I'm Ready to Start....

So many things are going on in my life right now

and at the same time not a lot is going on.

Recently I bought Krav Maga classes, 

I still haven't registered for them yet, 

I'll probably do that sometime this week, i'm really excited for them.

Also I saw a Livingsocial deal this week for Stunt training classes,

I'm considering signing up for these as well.

I feel like being adventurous lately.

I want to take advantage of every moment life has to offer me.

I'm just stressed right now.

and I think im coming down with a cold,

I'm like all achy and my eyes hurt and I've been running  fever.. 

but the weird thing is I haven't felt the typical sick.

Starting to realize this post isnt really about anything in particular, I just felt like I had to write.

 *Side note* I want to see The Host.

Can I make it better.. With the lights turned off

I give so much of myself with everything I do and lately I feel like I get get little to no return and that doesn't mean that I expect something in return but It does makes me feel sad and unappreciated.

maybe I'm just taking things too personally or maybe I should pull back and not give so much.
What do I do?

I'm scared of being taken advantage of and I'm scared of playing things to close to my chest.
I'm walking a very fine line.
I hate this feeling, like something's sitting on my chest and it hurts to breathe.

I think this will be a struggle that will plague me the rest of my life, finding the right amount I invest myself into something.

Crafty like a fox...

I've been crafting like crazy lately...

I love it!

Making things with my hands is so therapeutic for me.

List of things I've made over the past few months...

1. Coasters

2. Crochet crowns

3. Scarfs

4. Drawings

5. Gloves

...and there is more in the works.

I'm making decisions on things I want to put in my Etsy shop, I know for sure that I want to include the Crochet Crowns and I'm going to start making prints of my drawings. 

Also I'm feeling writey

So I feel some stories coming along as well as perhaps the conclusions of books I may have started. 

Who knows?

I'm not their hero but that doesn't mean that I wasn't brave

Im in love love love with Tegan and Sara's new album, 

its fun, 

amazing lyrically 

and makes me want to dance.

Who could ask for more?

My favorite song for the album right now is... 

(Drum roll)

"I'm not your Hero"

The song just speaks to me. 

I feel like it relates all the things I went though last year.

I feel like I started the year like the begining of the song 

"Standing where I am now, standing up at all
I was used to feeling like I was never gonna see myself at the finish line
Hanging on to parts of me, hanging on at all
I was used to seeing no future in my sight line"

I've come so far from where I was last January, 

I was feeling sad and I was questioning a lot of the things and people around me.

 I was really struggling and somewhere in the following months I decided that I needed to change my way of thinking and start looking towards the positive side of life.

This is where the second part of the song comes into play

 

 "Feeling like I am now lighting up the hall
I was used to standing in the shadow of a damaged heart
Learning all I know now, losing all I did
I never used to feel like I'd be standing so far ahead"

I am so ridiculously happy.

I found someone that completely understands me and loves me no matter what.

I have been given the greatest gift.

*Side Note* I want pizza...