Looking to my future.....

So tonight I went to a Psychic to get my palm read.
She started by tell me about my character she said
" You are a genuine and generous and you are very self less person and I see you in a career taking car of people."

Pretty good so far, right.
she continued
" I see that you are going to live a long life, your parents have very high expectations of you"

God does she live in my house!

"You are not a materialistic person and you will be content with a job that allows you to live comfortably."

Sounds about right

she then asked me to make a wish
and I did! (but I won't tell you ^_~)

" I see you thinking about 2 guys lately" I told her one of them
" one of the guys name starts with an A"
(I don't know who that is)
"I see a lot of guys looking at you (one works with cars) but you are guarded, you need to let your guard down."

she then said that she saw me taking classes soon

(I have been planning on going back to school, soon)

"I like the group of friends that you are keeping, they are honest and genuine people"
"This year you are going to figure out the direction that you are meant to go in, no more question marks"
" I see you getting married at 28 and no divorce or separation"

she ended it with

" I see you living a long and happy life"

Kinda Crazy... I think I will go back in a few months and get my tarot cards read ^_^

Controller v.s. Genuine... A Neverending Cycle

So I have been meaning to sit down and write this post, I have had it all worked out in my head and now I'm going to put it down on paper so to speak. This is going to be semi serious so prep yourself. I want to talk about people and their lasting effect on other people.

Their are some people out there who like to control and hurt others, they meet a person who is kind, honest and genuine and fool the other person into thinking they are the same.

They grow closer and then when its too late for the Genuine to notice, the Controller plays games with the other person, and it can be any game that cause mental and or physical pain. It makes no difference they just love the power of controlling the Genuine. The Genuine has blinders on and can't see how the controller is using them, some of them can even see it but they are in denial.

It gets to the point where the Controller has taken the Genuine's heart and has for the most part destroyed it, leaving only enough for the Genuine to survive. The ruined Genuine goes through life by living in the past, the pain of what the Controller did, everlasting.

The ruined Genuine eventually meets another Genuine, but considers themselves ruined and destroyed, no longer good for anybody but the Controller that ruined them.

The Genuine can see the good that the ruined Genuine can't see in them self.

They are both drawn to the good parts of each other, but the ruined Genuine is so afraid of the pain, and won't give the other genuine a chance.

So the other Genuine is left to think something is wrong with them when the ruined Genuine can't see past the Controller, which fills them with self doubt and leaves them very confused. All the Genuine can do is sit and wait for the ruined Genuine's heart to heal and eyes to open.

My only fear is that the ruined Genuine will wait till its to late to open their eyes.

This may not have made a lot of sense to you, but to me it makes perfect sense.

People that have been ruined by a Controller, I'm going to say this to you.

"When you meet a new person, keep your guard up, not all the way up just a little. Listen to what they say and how they say it. The Genuine will prove themselves over and over again to you, they will be there for you when you need them and they will always have an open ear for u to whisper your problems to. A Controller will manipulate you into doing what they want you to do, they will talk only about themselves and when they see that your not feeding into their manipulations they cut you out of their life. This is how you will tell the difference. When you find the right Genuine, you'll know."

*Side Note*

Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel, stop deciding exactly what we want, and just see what happens